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my almost lover
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
love can be so frustrating at times. not to mention the trust over there. im probably tired of singlehood. though its only a short 10 months, life is getting bored over me. streaming down the streets looking at couples, one after another. my mind filled with jealousy. certainly, this emotional rival seems to be taking over me. let alone the enviousness, i managed to calm myself down with his philosophy. the importantness of believing in fate. not to push things do far, not to force macrocosm to act towards our desires. this, i told myself not to hurry. so as not to land in the woeful plight i gave to my previous, you know who. yet, at some moments, initiating fate is mandatory. you know what i meant.
thinking of which, wondered why love has such powerful feeling on mankind. when will i meet my almost lover. (im not desperate or inconsolable) just ranting. to see, to meet, to be lovers are the obligatory stages. but first, who wants to fall into this plightful bottomless pit. like too much romance movies and novels we've read. how the lead actors or actresses, how the protogonists grapple over a particular love. and definitely, we forgive ourselves for first, for being to naive in allowing to step into the pit. then, forgive our assumptions to be made on any particular estranged we had on our relationships. it made us guilty of doing so, even though questioning makes us have doubts. the foolishness coerce us into acts that seemed to transform us entirely. we were so hopeful of fairy tale endings. but it always not at all happens.
marriage was thought to be a decent solution in the past. it makes this bottomless pit way shallower. but who knows revolution takes place. which makes everything seems so unreal. women also became the weakest link in this era. to be solely engulf in men's predomination. we took part in how women fought to be stronger than men, yet, it still fails.
love, how fate makes us worry. leaving our mind entirely to fate creates uncertainess and hastiness to make things work faster. we would never want things to be slow, and steady. even though we know thats the best way to attain the fairy tale like endings. we should be thankful to our almost lover for showing the way to oue true self. and now, im approaching the realization of the truth.
my birthday wish next year will be the same one as the previous year. same to my new year resolution. apart from wishing for good A's results. a post xmas greetings to you. santa's probably missing me out this year. he's finding me a nuisance.