Stabby pessimism
I`m leaving for my next host family tomorrow. I`m cool with that, a new family, house, neighborhood, all that`s fine. I`m grateful that they`re putting me up and they look nice so there`s nothing I *should* complain about. But I am going to miss my old family, and I can never stop thinking that this important phase for me, these four months living here, is totally over in about 36 hours. I will never experience anything like this again, it`s done. It`s not that there aren`t plenty of other experiences just as amazing around the corner, but that doesn`t change the fact that this one is now ending. Gah. Of course, this is now the time when I begin evaluating everything I did not take full advantage of when I had the oppurtunity, for no good reason and from which no positive result can come, and yet I still do it.
Yeah, um, my next host family doesn`t have internet or a computer so... I`m going to be very slow replying to e-mails, ljs, facebooks and stuff. I`ll try to get to an internet cafe once a week or so... I`ll try and think of something every week to post up here. I hate to say this, but unless you guys like staying up very late very often you won`t get to talk to me on MSN very often either. Oh, and since I can`t upload pictures to a computer that doesn`t belong to me, there will be 0 photos coming from me for the next... oh.. three months. Since I can`t plug my iPod into a computer that isn`t mine, I can`t recharge the batteries on my iPod. Since I can`t expect the luxury of having my own personal stereo system in my next house.. that means no music for the next 3 months too. Lovely.
This is getting me down needless to say.
Alright, I`m done spewing whiny bullshit now.
Yeah, um, my next host family doesn`t have internet or a computer so... I`m going to be very slow replying to e-mails, ljs, facebooks and stuff. I`ll try to get to an internet cafe once a week or so... I`ll try and think of something every week to post up here. I hate to say this, but unless you guys like staying up very late very often you won`t get to talk to me on MSN very often either. Oh, and since I can`t upload pictures to a computer that doesn`t belong to me, there will be 0 photos coming from me for the next... oh.. three months. Since I can`t plug my iPod into a computer that isn`t mine, I can`t recharge the batteries on my iPod. Since I can`t expect the luxury of having my own personal stereo system in my next house.. that means no music for the next 3 months too. Lovely.
This is getting me down needless to say.
Alright, I`m done spewing whiny bullshit now.