Alive

[sanguinetempest]

There's a star
and I'm digging so deep not to
wish for
what's in my heart

What's it worth to be human?
Why must one have a soul, in torment, confusion

I dream I am god
but when I wake, I live
and living is broken

Being alone with my thoughts is torture
drowning in a sea of endless possibilities
I don't want possibilities.
I don't want to dream.
I don't want to have feelings.

I dream I am god
but when I wake, there is beauty
and there is love
and there is jealousy
and there is frustration
and there is hopelessness

and I am alive

Alive