Just a Wreck

[sanguinetempest]

i love you
i worry
i fear for us
falling apart
i am fallen apart
breaking tearing ripping
apart
i'm scared that we're splitting
across oceans
across fields of emptiness
interest lost
do you still love me?
i'm hoping

fuck, times like this
trap me in a substance abusive mindset
i want to bury the feelings
in a mess of narcotics
i want to hold you close
but you're so far away
even though you're right here next to me
i can't bring myself to tell you
how i'm hurting
i can't bring myself to tell you
how i'm crying

are you just fucking lying to me?
3 nights in a row, fucker
3 nights in a fucking row
is this all i am to you?
nothing interesting anymore?
no more fun, no more games
just fucking lame
i'm just fucking lame

i'm just a wreck
don't look back now
i'm just a wreck

THERE'S NO REASON TO BE A WRECK

theres no reason to be a wreck my love.
my love is everlasting.

try not to create pain that is not real.
in this personal horror film that your casting.

i worry for you aswell.
its painful and its pure.

and i know its hard to tell,
but you definitely can be sure,

that my love is everlasting,
and i dont know how else to make you know it,

for the longest time it is love my heart's been vasting
but since i found you i dont have to show it.

because no longer am i without love and desire.
you are mine and thats the way it will stay.

and despite what you think, dont worry, im not a lier.
you are on my mind 24 hours a day.

well i think i had made it clear to you,
that my love, it is eternal.

and i hope you wont be too upset,
about me writing in you journal.

i love you laurie, you are my only one, and i am so sorry i have been so tired lately,
i have just been working so much, i know this poem was about me, so i wrote you this
poem to remind you that i do love you and i always will, you can delete it once you read it.

I LOVE YOU,
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