It's easier to believe in this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
19 hours and counting...
Sometimes I just say things that I hate myself for saying. The words "i don't know what I'm going to do if he doesn't call" actually came out of my mouth today. I want to gag myself. I hate the part of me that feels incomplete. I don't want to be your other half I believe that one and one make two ...Well you know what I mean. Everyone feels incomplete in a way until they find the person that they think is right for them. But no one should feel this incomplete without someone else. I don't feel half full. I feel like a drop of water at the bottom of the glass. Plus it doesn't help that I'm terrified.
Why does this feel so much like holding my breath? Why is this so much like breaking an addiction?
For some reason I forgot the steps to this dance.
I still can't seem to wrap my head around everything that happened in the past three months. I still dont understand most of it. But the hardest part i guess is still not understanding today. But atleast I feel better then I did yesterday.
Sometimes I just say things that I hate myself for saying. The words "i don't know what I'm going to do if he doesn't call" actually came out of my mouth today. I want to gag myself. I hate the part of me that feels incomplete. I don't want to be your other half I believe that one and one make two ...Well you know what I mean. Everyone feels incomplete in a way until they find the person that they think is right for them. But no one should feel this incomplete without someone else. I don't feel half full. I feel like a drop of water at the bottom of the glass. Plus it doesn't help that I'm terrified.
Why does this feel so much like holding my breath? Why is this so much like breaking an addiction?
For some reason I forgot the steps to this dance.
I still can't seem to wrap my head around everything that happened in the past three months. I still dont understand most of it. But the hardest part i guess is still not understanding today. But atleast I feel better then I did yesterday.