sorry LJ
dear LJ,
i apologize, i've been neglecting you. i have had a good reason, i promise. lots has been going on, and that's why i'm here... to update you.
my last post is kind of a give away as to what's been going on. brian was hit by a car on the 21st of august. he was in the ICU at HUP for 6 days, then was moved to a different floor. after 9 days at HUP, he was transferred to Bryn Mawr Rehab Hospital, where he's been ever since. he's been working really hard to strengthen his left side, which isn't working too well, since the main trauma was to the right side of his brain. he can move his right side normally, but the purpose of his therapy is to get his left side functional again. so far, his left leg has made the most progress, and they just started working with his left arm, which he hasn't moved a whole lot... so i'm so happy that they're starting to work with it. he still hasn't opened his left eye, but he loves telling me that he can see out of it when he holds his eyelid open.
this whole thing has really been hard for my entire family, but i think it's brought us all closer. my parents are so unbelievably strong, i'm amazed at how well they're handling everything. i, on the other hand, pretend to be strong when i'm around people, but when i'm alone... i'm pretty much a mess. i was HORRIBLE the first week, the first few nights especially. but gradually, i've gotten better with it. i still have my moments, but they don't happen quite so often as they used to. god bless my friends for helping me thru this. i don't know what i would have done without them. if i didn't love them all with my whole heart before, there are no words to describe how much i love them now.
so. considering all of what i've just said... imagine that on top of school. i'm currently in my fourth week of school, and i've been behind since the first. my brain can't seem to focus on anything, so homework has been a blast. i have to read certain sections about 4 times before any of the information starts to sink in. i'm usually OK in class, but tonight was horrible. i was sitting there, imagining what the rest of the semester was going to be like, and i was so scared. i have 5 really difficult classes this semester, and if i'm already drowning in work, i don't even want to imagine what the end of the semester would be like. so i considered my options (while sitting in my Literary Criticism class). i could drop my directed study and be forced to take a really lame elective next fall (because i WILL be in school next fall, which i think i've finally come to terms with). or i could drop art history and have half of the homework that i've had for the past three weeks and maybe, just maybe catch up with my other classes. the only downside is that i'd have to take art history in the fall, along with my basic journalism class and my internship. i think i can handle that. so i decided in the middle of my first class tonight that i was dropping art history. so i approached my teacher before tonight's class, told her what was up, and gave her the textbook back. she didn't seem to have a problem with it. thank goodness. so now, i have 4:30 classes on monday, tuesday, and wednesday, as well as my directed study. hopefully, i can handle that. if not, i'm screwed.
i'll finish updating tomorrow... it's bedtime.
i apologize, i've been neglecting you. i have had a good reason, i promise. lots has been going on, and that's why i'm here... to update you.
my last post is kind of a give away as to what's been going on. brian was hit by a car on the 21st of august. he was in the ICU at HUP for 6 days, then was moved to a different floor. after 9 days at HUP, he was transferred to Bryn Mawr Rehab Hospital, where he's been ever since. he's been working really hard to strengthen his left side, which isn't working too well, since the main trauma was to the right side of his brain. he can move his right side normally, but the purpose of his therapy is to get his left side functional again. so far, his left leg has made the most progress, and they just started working with his left arm, which he hasn't moved a whole lot... so i'm so happy that they're starting to work with it. he still hasn't opened his left eye, but he loves telling me that he can see out of it when he holds his eyelid open.
this whole thing has really been hard for my entire family, but i think it's brought us all closer. my parents are so unbelievably strong, i'm amazed at how well they're handling everything. i, on the other hand, pretend to be strong when i'm around people, but when i'm alone... i'm pretty much a mess. i was HORRIBLE the first week, the first few nights especially. but gradually, i've gotten better with it. i still have my moments, but they don't happen quite so often as they used to. god bless my friends for helping me thru this. i don't know what i would have done without them. if i didn't love them all with my whole heart before, there are no words to describe how much i love them now.
so. considering all of what i've just said... imagine that on top of school. i'm currently in my fourth week of school, and i've been behind since the first. my brain can't seem to focus on anything, so homework has been a blast. i have to read certain sections about 4 times before any of the information starts to sink in. i'm usually OK in class, but tonight was horrible. i was sitting there, imagining what the rest of the semester was going to be like, and i was so scared. i have 5 really difficult classes this semester, and if i'm already drowning in work, i don't even want to imagine what the end of the semester would be like. so i considered my options (while sitting in my Literary Criticism class). i could drop my directed study and be forced to take a really lame elective next fall (because i WILL be in school next fall, which i think i've finally come to terms with). or i could drop art history and have half of the homework that i've had for the past three weeks and maybe, just maybe catch up with my other classes. the only downside is that i'd have to take art history in the fall, along with my basic journalism class and my internship. i think i can handle that. so i decided in the middle of my first class tonight that i was dropping art history. so i approached my teacher before tonight's class, told her what was up, and gave her the textbook back. she didn't seem to have a problem with it. thank goodness. so now, i have 4:30 classes on monday, tuesday, and wednesday, as well as my directed study. hopefully, i can handle that. if not, i'm screwed.
i'll finish updating tomorrow... it's bedtime.