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Well, I think that everything is going pretty well in April-land. I haven't really done anything, but I don't expect much else so no worries. I haven't stuck to any of my goals, I haven't gone anywhere, and I haven't accomplished anything. Yet, I am not surprised honestly. I can't even decide if it makes me sad any more. I mean there are certain times when I feel like I should change things, but I still don't. The one thing that bothers me is that I think i make my b/f miserable. I mean all he wants is for me to be happy and for the most part I'm not so he's not. I was honestly thinking of breaking up with him after talking to his best friend b/c he told me that john usually is very affectionate (which I'm not) and that he doesn't think that we should be together b/c my distance hurts john. I don't know what to say. I am not used to the way things are. i am not goog at hanging off of anyone's nuts 24/7. I am trying, but I still hurt his feelings. I think that I may not be what he needs right now. I will keep thinking about everyhting I was told and we will see how things turn out. I'm not out to hurt anyone, but i think that I am instead hurting everyone, most of all me and john.