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My senior project on nursing is coming along okay besides the fact it is spring break and I left some of the stuff for it at school. I was soposed to volunteer at NHC Place today at 11:30 but they called me around 9:00 to tell me not to come in until 1:30 because Stephanie (manager) wouldn't be there until then. So I helped my sisters clean the house until I had to go and then I was there until around 5 or 6. I helped deliver the mail, transport patients, and set up for them to play games. It was a little uncomfortable because I don't know anyone and I'm not used to being around elderly people. I just smiled and tried to be understanding and nice to everyone and the staff there are really nice. Some of them need lots of attention and others are a joy to converse with. This was my first day to really meet any patients so maybe tomorrow will be better.
I didn't see or talk to any friends today except for a few minutes. I think ever since I stopped believing in my birth religion I've been really down spiritually. I know I have an unusually high amount of negative energy but I don't know what to do with it. I'm about to do some research and try to find my way, but my biggest influence right now is a friend of mine. I just don't want to be a sheep about something so personal... but I guess you can't help what you can clearly see to be true. I think I will meditate tonight and pray for guidance.
My parents are not any better but I haven't really tried to talk to them yet either. I just don't want to deal with it right now (I should though). I forgot to do a favor for a freind today ... and now I'm really mad at myself, but I will do it tomorrow. I'm mad at myself too for complaining way to much... I should be thankful for what I have. I really don't have many friends... but I love the freinds I do have and they must love me for all they go through being with me. I don't want to lose them... but I'm such a loner as is.. :( I wonder if anyone will even read this... *slight laugh* oh well...
I didn't see or talk to any friends today except for a few minutes. I think ever since I stopped believing in my birth religion I've been really down spiritually. I know I have an unusually high amount of negative energy but I don't know what to do with it. I'm about to do some research and try to find my way, but my biggest influence right now is a friend of mine. I just don't want to be a sheep about something so personal... but I guess you can't help what you can clearly see to be true. I think I will meditate tonight and pray for guidance.
My parents are not any better but I haven't really tried to talk to them yet either. I just don't want to deal with it right now (I should though). I forgot to do a favor for a freind today ... and now I'm really mad at myself, but I will do it tomorrow. I'm mad at myself too for complaining way to much... I should be thankful for what I have. I really don't have many friends... but I love the freinds I do have and they must love me for all they go through being with me. I don't want to lose them... but I'm such a loner as is.. :( I wonder if anyone will even read this... *slight laugh* oh well...