You never truely know someone.

[sandymae]

Hello everyone, I just thought that I would update to let evryone know what is going on with me. Well I have cried for the past 2 days. Why you ask? Because I thought that Zack was my friend and come to find out from one of my other friends he dosent really like me.. I was told that Zack was taking another girl to the prom (1st thing that I cried about), 2nd I was told that he was talking to Jenifer Rose and she asked what girls liked him and she told him to rank them from a 10-1. Well guess what? I was # 10. I was told that he basicly called me ugly, I ant suppose to know that he is takin another girl to prom yet, he told *This person* that he wanted to tell me, looks like he dosent have the balls to do it. I thought that he was my friends turns out I was wrong. He has been lying to me, calling my ugly behind my back. I dont know what to say, I have cried so much, I plan on talking to him about this, because I have to hear this from the horses mouth. Even though it might hurt, I want to hear it from him. I just dont know why I fall in love with such ass holes.The person that told me all of this begged me not to tell Zack about it, but I have to and I promise that I wont tell who told me. I am just glad that this person actualy told me the truth. You know what is strange Zack has been comming in and talking to me every morning, and every evening like nothing has happened. I have heled it back, but I am sorry I just cant anymore. I have to talk to him about all of this. A part of me dosent believe it, but a part of me does... Shows who your true friends are right. Well my prom date dropped out of school, so I am back to square one, but Justin and Jessica talked to Lucas Powers for me,and he said that if this other chick says no that he will go with me. If that dont work out maybe Wes will go. I just dont know how I am going to be able to just sit there, and watch him with another girl. He always told me that he didnt want to hurt me. Didnt he get that if he brought another girl to prom that it would hurt me, kill me.? HELLO!!! Justin-I just want to apologize for being such a bith to you Friday I was upset and I shouldnt have took it out on you, so I am so sorry. Well Jr's mom came down and saw me yesterday, I hadnt seen her in a long time. I cant believe how much I missed her. It was great seeing her, she hugged me, and told me she loved me so many times that I couldnt count anymore. LOL. She came in and looked at the den and bathroom, she liked them. She also saw my homecomming pics, and senior pics. She loved them too. God do I miss her.. If Jr wasnt such a dick, maybe I could see her more.. But I cant change his mind. He dosent want to be friend with me, that is his choice. I kinda understand though, if Scott is right and he still has feelings for me, maybe it is better if he dosent talk to me.. My life has just been demolished here lately. I used to be so happy, now I am so heartbroken. God help me, is all that I can say. Well I guess that I will go, I dont feel to good.. So bye everyone. Leave me a comment if you want, I wouldnt want to either, maybe Zack is right. I know I am ugly I just really didnt expect to hear it from him.. Well bye,

Love,Peace,and Happyness