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Why is it that I become so much more attached? I put so much time and emotion into something, and for what? For my heart to get stompped on? I'm emotionally exhausted...I don't want that...my heart hurts and I want to cry. I don't want pity for it either I want time and space to cry to myself and write the kind of poetry I write best. I want to be depressed and I want to get over something that never really exisited in the first place. Me and him were only real to me, the emotions felt by us were growing up for him and a potential long and loving relatoinship for me. *sigh* I don't know anything anymore and I don't want to. It sucks because as hurt as I am I want to be in love again...and as much as THAT sucks I want him back:\ I want it to be back how it was without whatever problem exists for him. why?