see i remember

[sandy_dreams]

my eye hurts again.

mike and maggie and matt and elli and me.

messes are messy and all the wrong people are on their knees cleaning it up.

i want someone how be angry for me. affected for me. feel it for me. be taken by my burden. tell me it is senseless and i dont deserve it.

What the fuck am i saying?"
Drunken voices impale my sanitation
I want to wash myself down
Clean myself of my genes
Of my biological burdens.
Deliver guilt so I can't move
Block me in about how she is
Let their blood poor over me
Let the placenta smother me
And who are you
But the bearer of bad news
And segregation.
I feel unfortunate