The most serious entry I've had
Okay! I need some serious prayer because, as some of you know, I haven't been eating normally with this whole Mike thing knawing at me. It is getting better though as time goes by. BUT this morning I woke up and got ready for work. I had noticed my pants seemed a little big but I didn't pay attention because my weight goes in spurts sometimes. BUT when I put on this skirt this morning, one that has always fit snuggly, it was loose. I am so scared I have lost weight because of how messed up my emotions have been with breaking up with Mike. I pray that I don't lose any more because I CANNOT afford to lose much weight. I'm so scared but I know that with God's help and prayer, I can move on and begin to eat right again. Believe me, I'm trying hard to eat but it's gonna take time so I'm praying for a miraculous recovery. A counselor bud of mine reminded me of a piece of Scripture which has helped me out quite a bit...by turning things back to God-where they should have been, but hadn't been. Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I recited this as I fell asleep the past two nights whenever I started to think of Mike. It was so refreshing. Whenever I feel I might lose my food, I recite this piece of Scripture. I'm gonna fight this and move on because I want what my heart desires. I know God has the most amazing guy for me...I just need to learn to be content with God only first. Everything will fall into place after that. ;)