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Alright I know BARELY anyone has done this but it will feel good so I say join the party train.
1. You are so far away from me, in more than one sense. Before you left you used to tell me that I was a really bad friend and you thought it wouldn't hurt my feelings. But it did and it always will because I do the best that I can. Now that you're across the world, I feel like we're getting further and further away from the friendship we used to have. It isn't fair but when you come back I'm going to try and do everything I can to compensate for the bad friend I was, because you are amazing.
2. I miss you so much. It isn't fair that you had to go because now you can't see Danit graduate and it sucks because I know that you would have been the proudest of all.
3. I know it's been over a year since it happened and I know you've been over it and so has everybody else, but this is one thing I can't seem to get out of my head. You are one thing I can't seem to get out of my head. You always see me when I'm doing embarassing things and I never got the chance to tell you how great I really think you are. Your girlfriend is so beautiful and nice and I know you'll be happy, it's just that I will always hope that you don't forget about me because I could never forget you no matter how many times I try.
4. I think we have a great friendship. We don't get to see each other much but I love listening to you because you trust me. I trust you too, it's just that stories I have don't compare to stories that you have, which is why I just want to listen to you. I think you're so wonderful, and I think you are so great at starting and keeping friendships, which is not something everyone can do. I hope you get into that school, I know you will.
5. I know sometimes it seems like I hate you and I am a fiery monster, but that's just cause I aggravate easy. I really admire you. You're beautiful and the world loves you.
6. You once said that sometimes you're not even sure if I'm really here. That you are schizophrenic and we are one in the same. And it's so likely that it's weird. I love you more than anything and I hope you know it. I wish we could live together because I'm always happy when I'm with you, no matter what's happening you always make me laugh. I also think you're a beautiful person. I know you've got a lot of secrets that you think are bad, but really who doesn't? You are the best friend anyone could have.
7. I have a dream about you every night of the week. And when I can't remember my dream, I know it's about you. In my dream you always forgive me in some way, because you always realize it's stupid to be angry with me. It isn't fair what you're doing. I said I was sorry and it's such a trivial thing that I did and I did it inadvertently also. You were my first best friend. I had such big love and respect for you but now I don't think we could ever be friends again because you fucking ruined it.
8. I don't know if you intrigue me or just confuse me but I like kissing you. It's fun and I guess we'll see what happens. You've always made me laugh and even though you're considered to be a "man-ho" I think you're really great.
9. You have to stop saying you love me because it hurts too much.
10. I'm always scared I'm going to grow up and be like you. When I was younger I would do anything in my power to try and stop it. But I can't stop it, I feel myself gradually turning into you. It's bad. I love you but I don't love your life.
11. You better love her back. And at 11:11 every night, I make a wish that you do.
12. I know it seems like I'm not always listening or that I'm avoiding you, but I just get nervous about what to say to you. Sometimes I think you're too sensitive but I can't tell if you're joking. I really have a great respect for you and I think you're one of the neatest guys around.
13. I've always been there for you, but you don't exactly return the favor.
14. It's hard to be your friend when you won't grow up. You baffle me because you're so mature on some levels but when it comes to other things, you're like 9. Middle school is over so can you just stop with the whole "do-you-think-he-likes-me-I-have-a-crush-can-you-talk-to-him-for-me-please?"
15. YOU ARE THE BEST ENGLISH TEACHER EVER AND I don't know what I'm going to do next year without you.