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kate came and stayed the night tuesday and we went out to see the movie RENT, which by the way is amazing. the casting was perfect, not to mention that it has one of the best soundtracks. it's probably one of my favorite musicals along with 'Chicago'.
i didn't go to class today.. i woke up and just couldn't do it. i have to be better about this next semester, but it's hard when you live so far away and have to drive all that way. oh well.. perhaps i will get an apartment once i get some money. *sigh*
not sure what i'm doing yet this weekend. i'll probably go to class tomorrow morning and then come home and nap.. probably head out to a party. if not i'll just head out to kate's bar and then hang out with her and her friends when they get out.
there is so much i wish i could tell the world about how great my life is. but it's hard because people are cruel and tend to judge, so it's bitter sweet when it comes to telling everyone about my life. well.. everyone will find out some day anyways.. doesn't really matter i guess. i think i just need to come to terms with the fact that i don't live my life for other people. and if i'm happy about something i should be able to tell about it without feeling like i'm a bad person for it.
i need to hang out with some people that make me laugh. it seems i'm spending time with the same few people and while that's all good and fun, i need some change. i mean, i didn't really expect to "keep in touch" with all my friends from high school anyways, but it's nice to see everyone once in a while i guess.
i can't wait until next semester when i don't have classes on fridays. cuz even though it's nice not having classes on wednesdays, it sucks cuz no one else has class on friday except for me. and i've kept up pretty good, not skipping it, even though it's at 9 and it's the only class i have that day. ugh. it just seems like everyone goes out on thursdays and i'm stuck at home. even my parents go out with their friends every thursday, so i'm at home alone.
but in a nutshell my life is wonderful. it's great when you have someone that loves you, and would do or say anything to make sure you know that they love you. wish everyone had something like this.. it's wonderful. but i have to say, i went through a lot of shit and heart-break before i got to where i am now. i was pulled through the mud and thrown away more times than i can count. made wonderful friends along the way, and the pain did hurt, but where it's put me has been great.
and i love you so much baby.