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River died ysterday morning for reasons that I won't go into now. I've been bouncing between being so alright that I almost feel ashamed and realizing that one of my cats is dead and I'll never see her again and oozing pain and depression like some kind of self produced, destructive acid.
I was going to say that I've never been very good at grieving but that's not true. I've never had to grieve. No one or nothing I've ever loved as an adult has died until now and I don't know what I'm doing or how to deal.
I was going to say that I've never been very good at grieving but that's not true. I've never had to grieve. No one or nothing I've ever loved as an adult has died until now and I don't know what I'm doing or how to deal.