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my grandmother passed away this weeked... i feel weird thinking about it so ive been avioding it. i hadnt seen her in like 10 years but its still weird... my mom seems to be doing ok, or as ok as you could be doing. im kinda goind nuts in this house all bymyself... normally theres stuff going on and im busy im working or passed out, but theres nothing going on... so im kinda just wandering around the house... bouncing between the computer in my room, my brothers room, and my parents room....... so i cashed my check for the church thingy and then promptly handed it over to my mom... and then i put the plane tickets on my credit card... so i may be sorta poor for a bit. 250 and then 550 for the plane tickets, pretty cheap tickets considering. i cant take compliments for my father for some reason... i didnt do anything that special, its only money, really at the end of the day what expenses do i have... gas and a cell phone bill every month... thats it and thats nothing, everything else is just whatever i could do without it. i dont know why i get so irritated with my father, its just everything he does tends to grate on my nerves these days... just stupid little stuff... i think its just all the drama and all the crap from living at home for so long... getting out at some point could be a good thing for me. but where do i go? id like to be the production assistant at the wilson center but thats not for sure when everyone else in my class could do the job just as well if not better. im going to get my BFA and id like to get my MFA at some point. but im not going to let it drag out and postpone it, i want to do it as soon as i can. i could stay in town and go to JU but im really not interested in their program, its hella expensive and i havent heard a single good thing about it other than it "gonna have this" and "eventually" but im very skeptical... im probably just being a jerk. i have a friend from school who has been looking into the University of Mississippi and thats what ive been thinking about. they have 4 theatres, one of which is brand new and they are seeking out techs to make it run. so much so that they are taking scholarships from other departments to give them to tech student. the requirements to get in are pretty low(2.0 GPA and no foriegn language requirment) and my friend told me that they said they would accept almost all of her credits from FCCJ. im probably gonna make the trip down sometime in the spring when she heads down there. my brother took some classes there and told me that it was a really nice campus, you go outside of the campus and thats a completly different story, but the campus itself is nice. but im lonely now... ive actually got permission to have friends over and whatnot so if anyone feels like hanging out or something that can be done... im not gonna have any wild parties or anything but a few friends chillin... rock and roll music... and a 40 of bud... yuppers lol