Christ I'm a dumbass.
Depression is a sneaking thing. It seems like I never realize that I'm so not happy until something makes me happy for a little bit. Then it all becomes so clear that for the past however many months, I haven't laughed. Really laughed, that laugh where you forget everything else and a day or so later you think back on it and smile. It is the same with crying too. I can't remember the last time I had one of those cathartic sobbing cries.
It just seems that I've been dead and lifeless for ever.
Options: A. medication and most likely therapy OR B. self regulation through diet and exercise. I'm not sure which to choose. Medication seems so easy, but I'm intensely uncomfortable with talking to a stranger about my problems. It takes me at least a year to warm up to someone. Diet and exercise would be best I think, but it will take a commitment and hard work. And we all know how I feel about commitment.
So, how are you kids doing?
It just seems that I've been dead and lifeless for ever.
Options: A. medication and most likely therapy OR B. self regulation through diet and exercise. I'm not sure which to choose. Medication seems so easy, but I'm intensely uncomfortable with talking to a stranger about my problems. It takes me at least a year to warm up to someone. Diet and exercise would be best I think, but it will take a commitment and hard work. And we all know how I feel about commitment.
So, how are you kids doing?