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I have an overwhelming sense of lonleyness coursing through my body,
I miss everyone, but I know I'm here for a good reason.
I just wish that every time I made a decision like this, I could bring everything important with me.
I miss the boy, and I really am skeptical about long distance things.
I don't know if I will ever come home for good, and I don't feel that is fair to him.
It's sad, because I really like him. I really think that If I would have been home, this could have been alot more.
I really feel bad about everything, and don't get me wrong, I WANT to be with him. I just think that I might be holding him back, and I don't want to do that. :(
It's fathers day today. I miss my Daddy.
My mom and I were talking about boys for the first time ever.. I dont think I could ever do that face to face with her, but my relationship with her gets better and better when I move away.. Weird. I miss her.
I miss Jimmy, and Samm, Christina, and oh so many others... I just wish that they could all come visit, but I understand that they cant drop their everyday lives for me.
I havn't seen my brother in forever. I miss him alot too... My Mom sent me pictures of his new house, and asked me how I liked it, I said I hated it, but I think I am just jealous that he has what I want....
I don't know anymore.
I want to be here, but I want the best of both worlds.
This will pass.
I hope.
I miss everyone, but I know I'm here for a good reason.
I just wish that every time I made a decision like this, I could bring everything important with me.
I miss the boy, and I really am skeptical about long distance things.
I don't know if I will ever come home for good, and I don't feel that is fair to him.
It's sad, because I really like him. I really think that If I would have been home, this could have been alot more.
I really feel bad about everything, and don't get me wrong, I WANT to be with him. I just think that I might be holding him back, and I don't want to do that. :(
It's fathers day today. I miss my Daddy.
My mom and I were talking about boys for the first time ever.. I dont think I could ever do that face to face with her, but my relationship with her gets better and better when I move away.. Weird. I miss her.
I miss Jimmy, and Samm, Christina, and oh so many others... I just wish that they could all come visit, but I understand that they cant drop their everyday lives for me.
I havn't seen my brother in forever. I miss him alot too... My Mom sent me pictures of his new house, and asked me how I liked it, I said I hated it, but I think I am just jealous that he has what I want....
I don't know anymore.
I want to be here, but I want the best of both worlds.
This will pass.
I hope.