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Ive been hurt once again. I sit here alone in my mind wondering how this could get any worse. When you love someone so much that leaving them to absolve you of any pain caused directly by them would seem better, in actuality, selfish on both hands.
I guess this is one of my first times actually wondering if I was better off. It just blows my mind how inconsiderate she can be. How hurtful she can be, but yet I've never felt more loved in my life by another person. I never really thought I'd be a victim of inconsideration to this extent, in a relationship with her. To feel so left out, forgotten about, unwanted. Maybe I'm just too dry for her. Too boring, too un-fulfilling. I would certainly hope that I'snt the case.
How exclusive is our relationship? I can't even answer that. I know what I want it to be, but im lacking the mutual feeling. When experience surpasses all of this, and things are too good to be true...Then you hit little bump that leads to a fork in the road, and say to yourself "This is such a little issue compare to all the other shit we've been through, how can this be this way?"
A million and one questions answered with excuses and infidelity. Such opposition. Its beyond me, it really is. I wish that this was just a little easier. I wish that this didn't hurt me so much. I wish I wasnt viewed as the opinionated one. Ive tried, and oddly enough I'm still trying. You really think I'm one to just say "I fold!" Eat me. I have a dad, hes worse.
I guess I'm second guessing myself. Will the things I strive for be reached? Ever? You could have asked me this question months ago, I could answer it.
I just want this feeling of insentience to pass so I can put love back in its place, where it should be. Where it was.
Oh yeah, welcome back jack ;)
I guess this is one of my first times actually wondering if I was better off. It just blows my mind how inconsiderate she can be. How hurtful she can be, but yet I've never felt more loved in my life by another person. I never really thought I'd be a victim of inconsideration to this extent, in a relationship with her. To feel so left out, forgotten about, unwanted. Maybe I'm just too dry for her. Too boring, too un-fulfilling. I would certainly hope that I'snt the case.
How exclusive is our relationship? I can't even answer that. I know what I want it to be, but im lacking the mutual feeling. When experience surpasses all of this, and things are too good to be true...Then you hit little bump that leads to a fork in the road, and say to yourself "This is such a little issue compare to all the other shit we've been through, how can this be this way?"
A million and one questions answered with excuses and infidelity. Such opposition. Its beyond me, it really is. I wish that this was just a little easier. I wish that this didn't hurt me so much. I wish I wasnt viewed as the opinionated one. Ive tried, and oddly enough I'm still trying. You really think I'm one to just say "I fold!" Eat me. I have a dad, hes worse.
I guess I'm second guessing myself. Will the things I strive for be reached? Ever? You could have asked me this question months ago, I could answer it.
I just want this feeling of insentience to pass so I can put love back in its place, where it should be. Where it was.
Oh yeah, welcome back jack ;)