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I am going through a lot and am experiencing a hiccup
because I used to be happy a lot and listen to folk music
and feel a certain equilibrium within the world that made me believe
that everyone and everything was beautiful
and while I believe that one day I will feel that wholeheartedly again
and that my heart will be full and that I will be very happy
I have not felt that way for quite a while
I think it's starting to show to people
and that they might be backing off
....because I am backing off and I don't want to make small talk with them
because I don't care about what they have to say right now.
and I am so, so sorry
I am very lucky to have the people I do in my life and hope they understand