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I developed some film I found in the closet today
it was a bunch of shitty pictures from freshman year
and a bunch from the second time I did shrooms - one of the most beautiful afternoons of my life
maybe the most beautiful!
then I started feeling really bad because of how much I dislike myself of the past
and how much I have left to go and how scared I am
I'm living with my Mom for the next week and a half and it's seriously difficult
but I feel really bad because it's not her fault that she's super hard to live with
we're just very different, however temporary that kind of relationship is
I felt lonely and dumb until I turned on Beat Happening
and then I thought about being in a band that awesome
and everything is wonderful again
I have always said that I'd probably be dead without music
Some people don't like it when I say that but it's pretty true