why won't you t-t-take the love i am givin' ya?
dear future self,
emily burtner
boop.
1. last wednesday I had a BIG moment where Max was a big blatant jerk to me for the first time ever and I was like WOW and Julia was like UH HUH and I was like YEAH I'M DONE. I just do so much talking with myself all the freaking time about life and how I'm living it. I'm paranoid that this Max situation is just a prediction of how future things are going to go? And I will just end up like my Mom and not know when to just leave and move on?
I was doing really good. I have no desire to look at his stupid Facebook. I sound like I am 13. A little 13 will always be in you and me.
But I did text him to see if he wants to do art with me tomorrow. I think this might make me look bad.
2. I'm so bad at being a good college student! I should go to bed way earlier than I do!
3. I deny myself my problems everyday. I have a problem and I say to myself "that is not a legitimate problem. that is a stupid problem that you wouldn't have without your insecurities. just let go and move on." but it doesn't work. i am stuck in a high school hallway and i can't get out
4. this max thing officially ended in mid July and yet it is still going on. it is difficult to say it is gone when there is still a physical aspect of a relationship. it is hard to say it is done when there was no ribbon cut. at least it is hard for me.
i am sorry to all of my friends for saying that name all the time.
if there was ONE thing I would definitely without question change about myself it is my jealous bones. please somebody break my jealous bone. there is no point to having a jealous bone at all. it is an evil thing that jealous bone!
emily burtner
boop.
1. last wednesday I had a BIG moment where Max was a big blatant jerk to me for the first time ever and I was like WOW and Julia was like UH HUH and I was like YEAH I'M DONE. I just do so much talking with myself all the freaking time about life and how I'm living it. I'm paranoid that this Max situation is just a prediction of how future things are going to go? And I will just end up like my Mom and not know when to just leave and move on?
I was doing really good. I have no desire to look at his stupid Facebook. I sound like I am 13. A little 13 will always be in you and me.
But I did text him to see if he wants to do art with me tomorrow. I think this might make me look bad.
2. I'm so bad at being a good college student! I should go to bed way earlier than I do!
3. I deny myself my problems everyday. I have a problem and I say to myself "that is not a legitimate problem. that is a stupid problem that you wouldn't have without your insecurities. just let go and move on." but it doesn't work. i am stuck in a high school hallway and i can't get out
4. this max thing officially ended in mid July and yet it is still going on. it is difficult to say it is gone when there is still a physical aspect of a relationship. it is hard to say it is done when there was no ribbon cut. at least it is hard for me.
i am sorry to all of my friends for saying that name all the time.
if there was ONE thing I would definitely without question change about myself it is my jealous bones. please somebody break my jealous bone. there is no point to having a jealous bone at all. it is an evil thing that jealous bone!