tiring and trying days
no sleep whatsoever.
I'm in santa cruz. phew. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Theres really nothing to worry about here right now. I can just sit back, unwind, and unpack while listening to whatever the hell music i want to.
Want. thats a funny word. Sometimes it overlaps with need.
I finally talked to him. he stayed in brum a day longer than expected. We talked for an hour, i cried for over half. We're supposed to talk when he comes back and see where things go...scared of the future. Well I am too. Only now it's because i dont think you're in it.
People can surprise you sometimes. and totally 180. I dont think he ever lied to me about the way he felt. but it bothers me that he thinks far ahead, but only to a certain point. Look past June. I'm such a hopeless romantic though...maybe thats my problem. Thinking that everything would be fine. I'll go to uk, he'll be in uk. theres no deadline anymore, right? screw it. i'd move there and transfer for good if he asked me to. deadline that. i sound nutty but i swear i'm thinking clearly.
I think that daydreams lie.
I want to kiss him. and other things.
I dont think I have the flu. its something more
must snap out of mood.
I'm in santa cruz. phew. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Theres really nothing to worry about here right now. I can just sit back, unwind, and unpack while listening to whatever the hell music i want to.
Want. thats a funny word. Sometimes it overlaps with need.
I finally talked to him. he stayed in brum a day longer than expected. We talked for an hour, i cried for over half. We're supposed to talk when he comes back and see where things go...scared of the future. Well I am too. Only now it's because i dont think you're in it.
People can surprise you sometimes. and totally 180. I dont think he ever lied to me about the way he felt. but it bothers me that he thinks far ahead, but only to a certain point. Look past June. I'm such a hopeless romantic though...maybe thats my problem. Thinking that everything would be fine. I'll go to uk, he'll be in uk. theres no deadline anymore, right? screw it. i'd move there and transfer for good if he asked me to. deadline that. i sound nutty but i swear i'm thinking clearly.
I think that daydreams lie.
I want to kiss him. and other things.
I dont think I have the flu. its something more
must snap out of mood.