maybe your better off this way
What do you do with the emotions your left with.
It seems silly to go back now, think of what could have, should have and might have been.
No one is ever going to live up to my expectations and I will constantly dissapoint others by breaking theirs.
I am more self sufficant now than i have ever been in the past. I have a house, a good job and have found the truth path of my faith.
I know that with thoes things, spacifically the last, I have the ability to do whatever I need.
I wouldn't say I am happy, cause what is happiness other than something that can be taken away. But i wouldn't say that I am unhappy.
I just am.
everything seems so automatic now. so natural. The bottom fell out and now i feel like I've got ahold of what it means to feel safe in your own skin.
Its been a awhile.
Its like a smell. like when you've been on a trip and now that your on your way back all you want to do is sleep in your own bed and you walk in the door of your room and the smells of comfort overload your senses. Your home.
Its good to be back.
Before it different, "the way your car is different when someone else is driving it."
Things feel a little rusty though. trains of thought, manners of body language.
When your overcome and over whelmed with heartache its hard too see clearly though the tears that cloud your eyes and your mind.
I've carried this around long enough. In the insitent it was gone and i feel so much more relief.
Letting grief go allowed all this other emotion to flood back in that i knew exsited but couldn't remember how to obtain it.
It seems silly to go back now, think of what could have, should have and might have been.
No one is ever going to live up to my expectations and I will constantly dissapoint others by breaking theirs.
I am more self sufficant now than i have ever been in the past. I have a house, a good job and have found the truth path of my faith.
I know that with thoes things, spacifically the last, I have the ability to do whatever I need.
I wouldn't say I am happy, cause what is happiness other than something that can be taken away. But i wouldn't say that I am unhappy.
I just am.
everything seems so automatic now. so natural. The bottom fell out and now i feel like I've got ahold of what it means to feel safe in your own skin.
Its been a awhile.
Its like a smell. like when you've been on a trip and now that your on your way back all you want to do is sleep in your own bed and you walk in the door of your room and the smells of comfort overload your senses. Your home.
Its good to be back.
Before it different, "the way your car is different when someone else is driving it."
Things feel a little rusty though. trains of thought, manners of body language.
When your overcome and over whelmed with heartache its hard too see clearly though the tears that cloud your eyes and your mind.
I've carried this around long enough. In the insitent it was gone and i feel so much more relief.
Letting grief go allowed all this other emotion to flood back in that i knew exsited but couldn't remember how to obtain it.