everyone i know goes away in the end

[sanctify]

when the truth that lies beneath the surface is unveiled
when the shapes that nobody's ever seen become real
when it's possible to stand on the other side of a mirror
then you know that I've arrived,
the superior force you always deniedlooks like ive finally been pushed back to where im supposed to be and i have my sanity and that is thanks to the

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[anonymous]

i made a dession, one made in your best intrest, one made to shield you from further pain, caused by the same shit (same girl) thats been causeing it for you, for the past...fucking forever. the more i think about it the more i find it wasnt my dession to make, however i know your current situation, not personally, but i know not to get in your way when you dealing with shit, and because of actions, out of our contoll stupid people that i want to kill did alot of stupid shit, that once again, i had no controll over, im sorry it went down like that, im sorry i havnt been around much, its not easy when i have school your not in and a girlfriend wich im beggening to think you hate. are some people getting tierd of jaimes bitch sessions? yes. are some people getting pissed off they can never be good enough to please you? yes. im not one of them, i know you to well, but recently even i am having trouble with it. you can tell people negitivity is your way, but it dosnt change anything, negtivity about something is one thing, negitivity about eveything is anouther, unrelenting negitivity about your life and evything that touches it gets old real fucking fast for some people. im sorry things are happening this way, but i dont know what you want me to do about it, the situation with ericks birthday, was my falt, a bad dession, to try to avoid a problem there, aswell as the drunken pissed off jaime that would have been inevitable. but you should have made that decsion. as far as eveything esle, thats your desision, its in your contoll, i cant help it, if you wanna float futher down, its your desison, it seems nothing i try to do with you helps anymore, im not good enough, or i keep making the wrong dessions, somthing, somthing is fucked, somthing needs to be fixed, i dont even know where the fuck all this started anymore, you just went all to hell in silent mode and closed yourself off, and then school started and...fuck i dont even know where im going, im just writting to tell you im sorry, sorry for not letting you know, sorry for trying to shelter you when its not my job, sorry for not trying to make more an effort to be with you, sorry for loving a girl that drives you insain, sorry for not being good enough.

[sanctify]

i appreciate you comming forth but i know that it was not all your fault, it couldnt have been but at least your the one with the balls to come forth. but dont condem yourself more than needed.