broken
crutial end point, the final blade has been plunged into my chest by someone inside, deep inside much farther than anyone entered and farther than anyonw knew existed and apart from sadness that feels like someone had their hands around your throat squeezing unrelentlessly i am filled with this animosity i want to put my fist into someones head, i want to feel around and pull out the soft gelatinus remains, i want to kick anvils into the mouths of infant children, for everything thats happened i now by choice of my own will pursue no more nor accept, i had everything and it was taken away bringing life and feeling back to this body is pureley in someone elses hands, i know htat at this point your all confused beyond belief and well its all scattered thought i came on cause i had something to type and other things came and now they will keep coming, more than all of this pain is a far worse pain the thought taht someone lesser has a chance to ruin what i treasured as the utmost happiness to cause her pain that she would never have had with me that is most saddening, nothing more i can say cept that i want nothing more than to have her by my side again