my momma loves me...
so i guess it's been awhile.. hehe..
anyways...
jacob's brought a lot to my attention.. and i really think he's helping to make me a better person...
both him and my neurologist...
so i have/ have had a lot of anger issues from the past which i do not deal with, and they are starting to come out... whether it's snapping, or just being vindictive... so i'm learning to deal with these in a healthier manner...
i really do not have a problem with anyone anymore (only for small amounts of time when they text message my boyfriend at 3 am.. but i'm getting better since he proved he had no interest in being friends by saying "why are you talking to me?")...
and to be quite honest.. i'm better and accepted the fact that jessica won't change.. i am a better person than her, and that makes me greatful.. she makes up lies, and tries to hurt me directly, and indirectly, with no success.. the friendship was fun while it lasted.. but it was not healthy.. i was mean and intelligent.. and our personalities clashed... kind of like pinky and the brain.. i hope one day that she will stop being a follower, and won't be so dependent on people... poor thing has a lot of issues she needs to work out... but there's some good in her somewhere
i've actually been doing really good with everything lately... i have the right amount of friends, family to talk to, and jacob:o)
plus there's the factor of hdub and work... so practically all my time is being consumed... and i like it that way... no time to think, or do bad things... OONDERFUL!!
i truely am happy... maybe it's my brain waves being adjusted.. maybe it's just jacob and how my life is going.. we'll see...
anyways...
jacob's brought a lot to my attention.. and i really think he's helping to make me a better person...
both him and my neurologist...
so i have/ have had a lot of anger issues from the past which i do not deal with, and they are starting to come out... whether it's snapping, or just being vindictive... so i'm learning to deal with these in a healthier manner...
i really do not have a problem with anyone anymore (only for small amounts of time when they text message my boyfriend at 3 am.. but i'm getting better since he proved he had no interest in being friends by saying "why are you talking to me?")...
and to be quite honest.. i'm better and accepted the fact that jessica won't change.. i am a better person than her, and that makes me greatful.. she makes up lies, and tries to hurt me directly, and indirectly, with no success.. the friendship was fun while it lasted.. but it was not healthy.. i was mean and intelligent.. and our personalities clashed... kind of like pinky and the brain.. i hope one day that she will stop being a follower, and won't be so dependent on people... poor thing has a lot of issues she needs to work out... but there's some good in her somewhere
i've actually been doing really good with everything lately... i have the right amount of friends, family to talk to, and jacob:o)
plus there's the factor of hdub and work... so practically all my time is being consumed... and i like it that way... no time to think, or do bad things... OONDERFUL!!
i truely am happy... maybe it's my brain waves being adjusted.. maybe it's just jacob and how my life is going.. we'll see...