(no subject)
science project: DONE
jazz presentation 30 minutes in length: INCREDIBLY NOT DONE AND PRESENTING TOMORROW.
career exploration: 1. Interview: NOT DONE - DUE WEDNESDAY.
2. Final: HAVEN'T STARTED - DUE FRIDAY.
3. Research Project - NOT DONE - DUE WEDNESDAY.
Interpersonal Communication Final Essay: HAVEN'T STARTED - DUE FRIDAY.
im so so stressed.
i want to sit and cry and cry and then run away.
i feel really bad.
i feel physically sick,
emotionally drained and confused,
and im wet from the pouring rain and wind,
and my hair is an official disaster.
sometimes i wish things were different.
sometimes i wish i lived in california.
sometimes i question whether or not im ready for life. in general.
im at clark. and im meeting my jazz group in camas at 5, it's 315, and i think im going to have to drive ALL THE WAY home to get the cable to upload my pictures onto lauren's computer so we can use them in our power point.
oh my gosh. this presentation is going to be a disaster and it's worth approximately half of our grade. it has NOTHING TO DO with the knowledge i've obtained in that class. it's a stupid review of the concerts at clark, and the night we went to jimmy maks. STUPID.
shaman told me that chase got in a car accident on saturday night, but that he doesn't know any details. chase woke me up saturday morning at like ten with his chipper hello, made fun of my morning voice and then put me on hold so i hung up, i didn't say bye.. and now im worried. i hope he's okay. he must be okay. ah poor kid.
weird things keep happening and i just want to talk to someone.
karla called me while i was at the rose garden yesterday and told me that our old friend JJ was electrocuted and died on sunday morning. that side-swiped me, and i felt really sad. he was only a year older than us, and we all group together at Laurelwood. it's really sad.
my parents went to my uncle gary's funeral/reception in tillamook this weekend and i couldn't go because i was working, i wish i could've been there, im going to miss him being around at gatherings.
heather is pregnant. she was married in august and she's five months pregnant. do the math.
heidi and dave are getting married after they said they wouldn't.
something is wrong with my gramma but my parents aren't telling me.
i never talk with my cousins.
i never see or talk with my soulmates.
i suppose i've isolated myself.
and i've become busy with other social events.
im making tons of new friends, but i severely miss my true blue.
i miss BFFs.
and keep having awful dreams.
i miss driving all the way to peacock lane with mike, mitch, bekah and micah and getting lost and yelling at eachother and singing and being christmasy.
and when all the power went out last year. i miss that night.
i dont know.
i have work to do i guess.
and im seriously upset that i have to drive all the way home and then all the way to camas.
rough patch of 2007 August - December
but im happy
jazz presentation 30 minutes in length: INCREDIBLY NOT DONE AND PRESENTING TOMORROW.
career exploration: 1. Interview: NOT DONE - DUE WEDNESDAY.
2. Final: HAVEN'T STARTED - DUE FRIDAY.
3. Research Project - NOT DONE - DUE WEDNESDAY.
Interpersonal Communication Final Essay: HAVEN'T STARTED - DUE FRIDAY.
im so so stressed.
i want to sit and cry and cry and then run away.
i feel really bad.
i feel physically sick,
emotionally drained and confused,
and im wet from the pouring rain and wind,
and my hair is an official disaster.
sometimes i wish things were different.
sometimes i wish i lived in california.
sometimes i question whether or not im ready for life. in general.
im at clark. and im meeting my jazz group in camas at 5, it's 315, and i think im going to have to drive ALL THE WAY home to get the cable to upload my pictures onto lauren's computer so we can use them in our power point.
oh my gosh. this presentation is going to be a disaster and it's worth approximately half of our grade. it has NOTHING TO DO with the knowledge i've obtained in that class. it's a stupid review of the concerts at clark, and the night we went to jimmy maks. STUPID.
shaman told me that chase got in a car accident on saturday night, but that he doesn't know any details. chase woke me up saturday morning at like ten with his chipper hello, made fun of my morning voice and then put me on hold so i hung up, i didn't say bye.. and now im worried. i hope he's okay. he must be okay. ah poor kid.
weird things keep happening and i just want to talk to someone.
karla called me while i was at the rose garden yesterday and told me that our old friend JJ was electrocuted and died on sunday morning. that side-swiped me, and i felt really sad. he was only a year older than us, and we all group together at Laurelwood. it's really sad.
my parents went to my uncle gary's funeral/reception in tillamook this weekend and i couldn't go because i was working, i wish i could've been there, im going to miss him being around at gatherings.
heather is pregnant. she was married in august and she's five months pregnant. do the math.
heidi and dave are getting married after they said they wouldn't.
something is wrong with my gramma but my parents aren't telling me.
i never talk with my cousins.
i never see or talk with my soulmates.
i suppose i've isolated myself.
and i've become busy with other social events.
im making tons of new friends, but i severely miss my true blue.
i miss BFFs.
and keep having awful dreams.
i miss driving all the way to peacock lane with mike, mitch, bekah and micah and getting lost and yelling at eachother and singing and being christmasy.
and when all the power went out last year. i miss that night.
i dont know.
i have work to do i guess.
and im seriously upset that i have to drive all the way home and then all the way to camas.
rough patch of 2007 August - December
but im happy