Breakdown
Today was the worst day ever.
I had a breakdown in the middle of class. I'm not sure what exactly happened. But a teacher just kept yelling at me saying, "Stephanie you can do so much better. I don't understand it...your brother got mostly A's. I don't see why you can't. You're such a bright student," and then all of a sudden I just lost it. I began yelling at him and telling him I wasn't my brother. I kept telling him I was never going to be what he wanted me to be. I just kept yelling at him until I stopped, fell to my knees and broke out crying. Later on my mom picked me up and I laid in bed crying. I really need someone to talk to. It feels like forever since I had someone actually care, and the last person who cared was Fabio and some of my friends. But...no one ever talks to me now and I just feel so alone.
But so far no e-mails...some comments about the last thing I said. "YOU THERE! CAKE OR DEATH?!" so...I might say that more often to make people e-mail me some questions. So...uh...yeah.
Nothing else to say. Oh, theres this kid named Corey in my class thats a total jerk. He judges people by appearance and calls everyone names. But...no one likes him anyway so nothing to worry about. He said I was a stupid goth, I said he was as straight as a rainbow. But...thats all I have to say to some people. I'm not saying being gay is bad or anything...its just hes a homophobic...gotta get him where it hurts. So...this might be the last one for tongight I'm not sure. I'll catch you all later.
I had a breakdown in the middle of class. I'm not sure what exactly happened. But a teacher just kept yelling at me saying, "Stephanie you can do so much better. I don't understand it...your brother got mostly A's. I don't see why you can't. You're such a bright student," and then all of a sudden I just lost it. I began yelling at him and telling him I wasn't my brother. I kept telling him I was never going to be what he wanted me to be. I just kept yelling at him until I stopped, fell to my knees and broke out crying. Later on my mom picked me up and I laid in bed crying. I really need someone to talk to. It feels like forever since I had someone actually care, and the last person who cared was Fabio and some of my friends. But...no one ever talks to me now and I just feel so alone.
But so far no e-mails...some comments about the last thing I said. "YOU THERE! CAKE OR DEATH?!" so...I might say that more often to make people e-mail me some questions. So...uh...yeah.
Nothing else to say. Oh, theres this kid named Corey in my class thats a total jerk. He judges people by appearance and calls everyone names. But...no one likes him anyway so nothing to worry about. He said I was a stupid goth, I said he was as straight as a rainbow. But...thats all I have to say to some people. I'm not saying being gay is bad or anything...its just hes a homophobic...gotta get him where it hurts. So...this might be the last one for tongight I'm not sure. I'll catch you all later.