half and half
so today starts off freezing. but i managed to get all of my barn stuff done. greg went off to look at a nice little CRX over in MD that the dude wants 3800 for and that's WITH a new tranny and a new clutch (all done in house). i think we're going to be selling off the civic. its still getting 40 MPG so if there's anyone that's interested in a little 4 spd beater car that will get you where you want for about 2000, then please get back to me :)
i found out today that the wonderful group that thought i was only "after them for their money" lost their battle in court and won't have any aforementioned money to speak of anyways. i can't even believe you would think that i'd sink that low. you all deserve what you get, and that's absolutely nothing. i did nothing to you and you accused me of stealing without any proof. after all i'd done for you and how much i'd loved you, you turned on me and accused me of something so horrible. so then i got angry and called you names that embarassed you. names i thought you deserved after what you'd done to me and now maybe you will think about the karma of the situation next time. i don't hate you and i never will - but to think that i would ever use you for money after you've used so many others is beyond my comprehension. you are a failure as a human being, as an aunt, as an idol, as family.
i hope to god that amanda finishes school and does alright for herself. i hope she realizes one day that i never tried to hurt her and it was all your fault that she thinks so. that the poison she's feeding off of now is your doing, NOT MINE. you tell her lies about me and she believes you because she loves you and she trusts you.. but you know they're lies. for once i wish you would give up and tell the truth. for once i wish you would be less paranoid. for once i wish you'd treat family like family and not like we're your enemy.
my mom was right. she's always been right. i just didn't want her to be.
i found out today that the wonderful group that thought i was only "after them for their money" lost their battle in court and won't have any aforementioned money to speak of anyways. i can't even believe you would think that i'd sink that low. you all deserve what you get, and that's absolutely nothing. i did nothing to you and you accused me of stealing without any proof. after all i'd done for you and how much i'd loved you, you turned on me and accused me of something so horrible. so then i got angry and called you names that embarassed you. names i thought you deserved after what you'd done to me and now maybe you will think about the karma of the situation next time. i don't hate you and i never will - but to think that i would ever use you for money after you've used so many others is beyond my comprehension. you are a failure as a human being, as an aunt, as an idol, as family.
i hope to god that amanda finishes school and does alright for herself. i hope she realizes one day that i never tried to hurt her and it was all your fault that she thinks so. that the poison she's feeding off of now is your doing, NOT MINE. you tell her lies about me and she believes you because she loves you and she trusts you.. but you know they're lies. for once i wish you would give up and tell the truth. for once i wish you would be less paranoid. for once i wish you'd treat family like family and not like we're your enemy.
my mom was right. she's always been right. i just didn't want her to be.