Helpless

[samwisegamgee37]

I want to cry and scream and breath out fire. Everything I've ever felt is overflowing from my heart. I feel like I can't do anything to save her and there's nothing anyone can do to change it. I've known Katie for a long time and while we were best friends she was a good kid. She could have her moments, lots of them actually, when she was mean to me, and didn't understand me, but we were friends. She didn't do things that she shouldn't, she knew right from wrong and resisted temptation. Her life has gone to complete hell and she's gone with it.
If she sits in hell this very moment the fire isn't consuming her, she's consuming it. Everything she does seems to hurt her more and more and she doesn't stop to think. She could tell me how she feels, whats going on in her head but she doesn't want to talk about it. The people around her aren't influencing her in the right way, they're steering her in directions that lead only to the grave.
Does she see what I see when she looks in the mirror? Does she see herself falling apart? I don't know how she can look at her life and not want to change. Does it make sense to her all the things shes done? all the things shes doing? How could she have been one person 15months ago and be totally different now? Nothing about her is the same.
--Heartbroken