Happy Belated New Year!
Welcome to a brand new decade! And I realize how much I suck at updating often these days, but I'm still working to change that. Gotta love the life that pulls me into the real world.
I'm currently volunteering at my church serving coffee to the members and guests, and have been since August 4. While volunteering over there, I found myself not only going into a bigger perspective with my faith and how I deal with the world in general, but being surrounded by genuinely kind people who share the same Christian faith as I gave me a huge reminder that there are some good people left in this world...and not just online either. My gratitude for them grows even more when they're doing whatever they can to help me look for work, even if I honestly don't know what I really want to do since my field is NOT on high demand where I live. Even if I did know what to do, I'd have to create my job at home...since my communication skills with people are just not very good in a verbal sense. I still haven't forgotten how much my last job turned me away from being a people person also.
Heck, I even signed up to take classes on Skillshare so I can learn new things and/or get updates on stuff I had learned before in school. So far, it's getting the job done, though I have only taken/finished one class. Since I'm still planning on selling my art in various forms (art prints, bookmarks, even clay pins just to start off with), there is much more to do.
Of course there are always obstacles that stand in the way, and I completely understand that. At the moment, taking care of family matters come first since I'll be going with my mom to help out. This will be my first time sharing reponsibility in caring for an elderly grandparent. Technically, it's my great-grandmother who I love very much. It's like being a temporary nurse with no experience in the nursing field. At least I'll learn something out of it, too.
Lastly, I feel like I've gotten my confidence and self-esteem back after several years of self-improvement. Setting strict, but not too rigid, boundaries has helped a lot for one. They may end up with some negative consequences, but I don't even care what people think anymore. When it comes to exes (whether it be friends or lovers), it's best to try not to let their hurtful words get to me. If I did that, I'd probably expose them to the point that I end up unintentionally ruining that person's life...as a method of revenge. If anything, I'd just simply tell them off while remaining as civil as possibly. I'm going to be a 40-year-old woman soon and I'm way too sick and tired of BS tossed in my direction. If they don't want to apologize for hurting me, that's fine. All that person did was show me that he/she will always be some sort of rotten monster I should stay away from.
I'm looking forward to simply living in the moment this year, and continuing to be my new self.
I'm currently volunteering at my church serving coffee to the members and guests, and have been since August 4. While volunteering over there, I found myself not only going into a bigger perspective with my faith and how I deal with the world in general, but being surrounded by genuinely kind people who share the same Christian faith as I gave me a huge reminder that there are some good people left in this world...and not just online either. My gratitude for them grows even more when they're doing whatever they can to help me look for work, even if I honestly don't know what I really want to do since my field is NOT on high demand where I live. Even if I did know what to do, I'd have to create my job at home...since my communication skills with people are just not very good in a verbal sense. I still haven't forgotten how much my last job turned me away from being a people person also.
Heck, I even signed up to take classes on Skillshare so I can learn new things and/or get updates on stuff I had learned before in school. So far, it's getting the job done, though I have only taken/finished one class. Since I'm still planning on selling my art in various forms (art prints, bookmarks, even clay pins just to start off with), there is much more to do.
Of course there are always obstacles that stand in the way, and I completely understand that. At the moment, taking care of family matters come first since I'll be going with my mom to help out. This will be my first time sharing reponsibility in caring for an elderly grandparent. Technically, it's my great-grandmother who I love very much. It's like being a temporary nurse with no experience in the nursing field. At least I'll learn something out of it, too.
Lastly, I feel like I've gotten my confidence and self-esteem back after several years of self-improvement. Setting strict, but not too rigid, boundaries has helped a lot for one. They may end up with some negative consequences, but I don't even care what people think anymore. When it comes to exes (whether it be friends or lovers), it's best to try not to let their hurtful words get to me. If I did that, I'd probably expose them to the point that I end up unintentionally ruining that person's life...as a method of revenge. If anything, I'd just simply tell them off while remaining as civil as possibly. I'm going to be a 40-year-old woman soon and I'm way too sick and tired of BS tossed in my direction. If they don't want to apologize for hurting me, that's fine. All that person did was show me that he/she will always be some sort of rotten monster I should stay away from.
I'm looking forward to simply living in the moment this year, and continuing to be my new self.