blessed be the Father
I went to church for the first time in over a month. I am so glad I went. For a long time I've been feeling lonely, almost empty, and pretty worthless. Then I began dating a wonderful girl, and I was happy. But it almost felt a little like I wasn't really into it, and it scared me. I love this girl so much, but I didn't want to hurt her by seeming distant. Then I went to church. I was filled, fed, revived. I felt like God was telling me: "Look, you can be with someone and be happy. But you'll feel weird about it. But if you add Me to that mix, everything will get so much better." And it's true. I was so joyous tonight that while we were singing worship, I couldn't stop smiling, and I was laughing. Laughing, because I was so very happy. And I think that this will cross over to everything else, including my relationship with my girlfriend. Almost like being with God will allow me to love her more. I don't know if that's possible, but I'm willing to try all the same. Thank you, Father, for expanding my joy. Blessed be the name of Jesus, my Lord and Saviour. Amen.