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1. HOME
I think Sera's had three periods of "home" in her life - with home defined more as "a place where it's bearable to be alive" than "where the heart is," since Sera always did find her life unbearable in many ways. First, it was the place she lived and got experimented on in, but I think that had already faded by the incident five years ago for the most part, because much as she loved Nurse Argilla and Doctor Sheffield, all of her friends were dead. Then it was probably her fantasy world, but she was obliged to give that up. After that she started getting... less attached to places, though the destruction of the boat still hurt her a lot, and the loss of the Embryon base would've been a blow. It wasn't really her home, though - she'd started putting her home in people. The approval and acceptance of Embryon was something she could carry around with her.
Then game 2 happened. |Db
IN CAMP she's still mostly following that but she loves the cannibal cabin passionately because they've totally marked it all up with orange paint to make it AWESOME and Argilla put in orange curtains. BOY'S 18. WHERE IT'S HAPPENING, YO.
2. SERPH/SERA
Oh man, I love this pairing, I can't even tell you. I KNOW IT LOOKS LIKE WE DON'T DEVELOP THEM A LOT and that's totally true in a way but it's partly because they don't. Need it. Their love exists as a pure crystallized moment in time into which nothing else can enter. All of their threads are identically adorable and bittersweet, and Serph's continued existence acts as a persistent healing balm to Sera's soul. THEY DON'T EVEN NEED INTERACTION though we both love it because Serph/Sera just IS.
To break it down more: Serph is who Sera wishes she could be, and being with him makes her more like that, at least for a little while. He's brave and self-sacrificing, loyal without her taint of insecurity and fear, and he doesn't hate himself or most other things. He believes in people she can't always believe in, including her, and his belief makes her incredulously hopeful that she's worth something to the world. It's not that he has no flaws - I'm pretty sure Sera is smarter than him in terms of pure analytical ability, probably - but to her, his flaws make him all the more Serph and thus better. Around Serph, Sera's barriers completely drop - her body language changes, there's nothing she'll avoid talking about for her own sake rather than for an external reason, and she's a lot more likely to smile with her whole heart in it. She'll hug him or kiss him or hold his hand at random without hesitation or even a lot of thought behind it. SHE JUST LOVES HIM SO MUCH, and has absolutely no fear of him judging her or reacting in any of the ways she's a little afraid of in her day to day life, because it's Seeeeerph. She is utterly confident that the only way he could or would ever hurt her would be by getting hurt or dying by mistake.
Something I love about the pairing: It's sexual without needing the sex. Sure, they're physically attracted to one another, but whether they're having sex/sexual contact or not makes absolutely no difference to anything ever. Their love surpasses UST. It is RESOLVED, SEXUAL LACK OF TENSION instead. I think they both accept in their souls that they'd probably be having sex if they could but that it'd be just one more expression of their love for one another, which is unchanging and unchangeable. Which makes sex ultimately less important in the scheme of things. If they ever have sex in camp they might as well just turn into Seraph for a month. THIS IS WHAT AN OTP THAT INCLUDES BOTH CHARACTERS FUSING INTO ONE ENTITY BY THE END OF CANON LOOKS LIKE, FOLKS. They are ment2b and I love them.
3. WHAT SERA THINKS OF CAMP NOW
She's guarded. She likes it, and will probably like it much more than any other place she's ever been for as long as she's here. But it took Argilla from her, and has done a lot of weird things, and she's pretty sure now that the monsters and zombies come from experiments on stuff, which is Not On. Plus there's a lot of her having to learn to deal with pain from people who aren't comrades but who don't hate her here, which she associates with the place - a lot of bad emotional atmosphere. She still wants to stay here till camp makes Embryon leave - on some level, she still wants to leave Embryon at camp, so they don't have to die again - and that's probably not going to change. I see this state of mind regarding camp lasting for a long time.
4. SERA AND RACISTS
Sera is still mostly cool with racists but is starting to resent them a little in a strange form: She kind of doesn't WANT to tell them about her emo past and the horrible history of her world any more. She's sort of decided that she shouldn't have to tell people about how hard her comrades fought for humanity for them to all be accepted, as long as they aren't, you know, eating someone in front of whoever's doing the asking. WHATEVER, THEY CAN BE RACIST IF THEY WANT. The problem is that while she doesn't mind people judging her by herself (though she totally does mind sometimes even when she doesn't think she does, depending on the case) she can't stand people badmouthing her comrades. (NOTE: Her new DISLIKE of being told she should kill herself is actually a SIGN OF CHARACTER GROWTH involving NOT WELCOMING RESENTMENT OF HER EXISTENCE WHICH JUSTIFIES HER WORLDVIEW.) So it's a weird place for her to put herself in! And is mostly a result of continued stuff with:
5. SERA AND KHARG, FOR ANYONE STILL FOLLOWING ALONG WITH THAT AT HOME
Both are stupid. The end.
(Okay, no, really, I could talk a lot about the underlying issues there but.
Yeah.)