tainted love

[sampledsoul]

i really am entering a new phase in my life. I don't think it's really by choice but more by coincidence. Maybe this is what i need? I am not sure. I called rochelle last night and was talking to her about how maybe we shouldn't mess around anymore because she still has a bf and i don't really know how i feel about her. I mean i do like her but i'm not sure she's the girl for me. Then again do you ever know before you date a person? She isn't even single so i can't even think about dating her. Anyway.. back to my story... so i tell her this and she is all like i don't know where this is coming from.. it's so out of the blue. She then started crying.... first sign that i should stay away from her, but then again she was drunk. I didn't know that when i called. Then this morning she calls me and tells me that she is sorry that she was crying but it was only cause she was drunk and that she really doesn't care if we stop messing around. I don't know what to believe... oh well. It just makes things interesting. She is supposed to come over today.. we shall see. I bet that she doesn't .. so i'm making other plans. Isn't life fun?

anyhow... i really miss being able to call up leah and hang out with her. I wonder if i'm just hanging out with rochelle cause i have nothing better goin' on? oh well maybe so. nah, i don't think that is it because i am really not that bored or anything when i'm alone these days.