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So...I have no idea why I'm typing this...but whatev, I can do what I want.
There are so many things that fill my mind, it's hard to sift through all of these thoughts...but I'll put down what I've been thinking about lately...
I hate liking guys...I absolutely hate it. I feel so childish and immature...it's not even funny. There's so much worrying about what he thinks, uncertainty about whether he'd want to do anything with you, all that typical bullshit...it's completely insane. I've tried to just stop myself from liking anyone...but there's something wrong with me that won't allow me to do that, and then I just end up on my ass again. In the past, anytime I've tried to tell anyone that I liked them...it has never gone over well. I give up hope with this...nothing good will come of it...so why bother?
Moving on...
I think it's the saddest thing to see someone by themselves in a huge crowd of people all talking to each other, but leaving that one person out. I'd understand if it was some insane serial killer person, but it's usually just the shy one. I shouldn't be talking, because, have I ever done anything to get that person involved in the crowd, or just plain talk to them myself, no, so I feel like a complete ass.
Anyways...now that "Deep Thoughts" by Erin Thode is over, I'll tell you all what happened today...whoever reads this anyway. Um, well, Lauren and I went out to eat at Carlos, it was delish, and my car smelled of Mexican food for a while afterward, because I left my food in there while we went shopping. And I bought a Jimi Hendrix CD today...and Lauren bought Led Zeppelin, and then I made a copy of each so we both got a free CD. We also went to The Core, but I didn't find Ghost World, and I didn't have much time to look through all the comic books and graphic novels...so we left. Well...tonight was the last night of play, boohoo, I was going to go to the cast party afterwards, but we didn't get done with eating and awards and such until almost midnight...and I was supposed to be home by 12:30, so it would've been pointless for me to go. I might watch Pink Floyd: The Wall though...I've had it laying around for a while, and it definitely needs to be watched. I have tons of Comp. and Rhet. to do...my favorite class!
I'm sorry if my thoughts for today seemed dark and depressing, I don't feel like slitting my wrists or anything, and I don't bawl my eyes out in bed every night...it's just things that I think about...too much, it needs to stop.
Also, does anyone else think the mayor seems like a lonely guy. No one ever talks to him, and he's always alone, it makes me sad. We should all give him a hug and thank him for being our mayor...yeah...ummmm...anywho...have a great night, day, week, year, whatever. Bon voyage....baby!
There are so many things that fill my mind, it's hard to sift through all of these thoughts...but I'll put down what I've been thinking about lately...
I hate liking guys...I absolutely hate it. I feel so childish and immature...it's not even funny. There's so much worrying about what he thinks, uncertainty about whether he'd want to do anything with you, all that typical bullshit...it's completely insane. I've tried to just stop myself from liking anyone...but there's something wrong with me that won't allow me to do that, and then I just end up on my ass again. In the past, anytime I've tried to tell anyone that I liked them...it has never gone over well. I give up hope with this...nothing good will come of it...so why bother?
Moving on...
I think it's the saddest thing to see someone by themselves in a huge crowd of people all talking to each other, but leaving that one person out. I'd understand if it was some insane serial killer person, but it's usually just the shy one. I shouldn't be talking, because, have I ever done anything to get that person involved in the crowd, or just plain talk to them myself, no, so I feel like a complete ass.
Anyways...now that "Deep Thoughts" by Erin Thode is over, I'll tell you all what happened today...whoever reads this anyway. Um, well, Lauren and I went out to eat at Carlos, it was delish, and my car smelled of Mexican food for a while afterward, because I left my food in there while we went shopping. And I bought a Jimi Hendrix CD today...and Lauren bought Led Zeppelin, and then I made a copy of each so we both got a free CD. We also went to The Core, but I didn't find Ghost World, and I didn't have much time to look through all the comic books and graphic novels...so we left. Well...tonight was the last night of play, boohoo, I was going to go to the cast party afterwards, but we didn't get done with eating and awards and such until almost midnight...and I was supposed to be home by 12:30, so it would've been pointless for me to go. I might watch Pink Floyd: The Wall though...I've had it laying around for a while, and it definitely needs to be watched. I have tons of Comp. and Rhet. to do...my favorite class!
I'm sorry if my thoughts for today seemed dark and depressing, I don't feel like slitting my wrists or anything, and I don't bawl my eyes out in bed every night...it's just things that I think about...too much, it needs to stop.
Also, does anyone else think the mayor seems like a lonely guy. No one ever talks to him, and he's always alone, it makes me sad. We should all give him a hug and thank him for being our mayor...yeah...ummmm...anywho...have a great night, day, week, year, whatever. Bon voyage....baby!