Not Feeling to good but not wanting to go to bed...
Yah taoday was pretty good...up and down though. This morning i worked on AP. Me and Los were supposed to go to the beach but she hadda work so not so much. it was okay though cuz after we went to the mall and i got some cute stuff. After we went to her casa and were supposed to go out with Derek Randy Andrew and Nick but because my parents are retarded we could not. So after this huge long drawn out arguement they finally consented but barely and at this point I wasn't in the mood to do anything so due to events we didn't end up going but its all good. I had fun with Los like always any whoo. I'm glad we've gotten to spend time together for the last few days its been very cool. I love her.
But back to me and my rents fighting... so not cool. It seems thats all we do lately. If its not one thing its the next. It really sucks how strained me and my mom's relationship is. We used to be pretty okay like we're both wicked crazy and get mad so fast so we would fight easy but we also used to be pretty close and stuff between the typical mother-daughter fights. Now we just stand eachother because we hafta live together. It sucks but there's nothing I can do. One thing I've thought about a wicked lot is that even though all the time growing up you say "oh i'm not going to do this with my kids!" and "Oh i'm going to let mt kids do this when their however old" and then you never really do cuz you grow up out of it and whatever. But one thing i really hate is when parents...especailly mom's, cuz i think guys are different about this whole thing, but they say like 'oh you can talk to me about anything and i'll understand and I've been that age once i know" but then when something actually happens that they don't approve of or anything serious that they find out about they totally 360 on you. i just think that sometimes parents are so focused on how they feel about an issue that they really make their kids feel like shit about themselves for it in an attempt to make them change. I just think that's so wrong and even though i may disagree with my kids on stuff and i'm not saying that if they come to me and tell me they want to do crack i'm goign to be like sure okay but i mean other stuff that we just differ in opinion. I dunno maybe i'll have this whole theory more perfected when i gtow up but i do feel that the worst thing i parent can do is try ot make their kid feel bad so they'll do what they want them to. it just kills the relationship. I know sometimes they "want the best for their kids" but sometiems they hafta think of how the kid feels during all of this. Unfortunately I'm feeling the effects...
Well i'm just venting and probably going to bed cuz i'm just not in a good mood... maybe things will "look brighter in the morning"..hopefully
<3 Sam
P.S. Thank you Los for being there for me tonight, I'm sorry i hadda get plans messed but thank you for just being there it meant a ton...i love you so much and i'm so glad i have you in my life...
Dag n los for life hahaha
But back to me and my rents fighting... so not cool. It seems thats all we do lately. If its not one thing its the next. It really sucks how strained me and my mom's relationship is. We used to be pretty okay like we're both wicked crazy and get mad so fast so we would fight easy but we also used to be pretty close and stuff between the typical mother-daughter fights. Now we just stand eachother because we hafta live together. It sucks but there's nothing I can do. One thing I've thought about a wicked lot is that even though all the time growing up you say "oh i'm not going to do this with my kids!" and "Oh i'm going to let mt kids do this when their however old" and then you never really do cuz you grow up out of it and whatever. But one thing i really hate is when parents...especailly mom's, cuz i think guys are different about this whole thing, but they say like 'oh you can talk to me about anything and i'll understand and I've been that age once i know" but then when something actually happens that they don't approve of or anything serious that they find out about they totally 360 on you. i just think that sometimes parents are so focused on how they feel about an issue that they really make their kids feel like shit about themselves for it in an attempt to make them change. I just think that's so wrong and even though i may disagree with my kids on stuff and i'm not saying that if they come to me and tell me they want to do crack i'm goign to be like sure okay but i mean other stuff that we just differ in opinion. I dunno maybe i'll have this whole theory more perfected when i gtow up but i do feel that the worst thing i parent can do is try ot make their kid feel bad so they'll do what they want them to. it just kills the relationship. I know sometimes they "want the best for their kids" but sometiems they hafta think of how the kid feels during all of this. Unfortunately I'm feeling the effects...
Well i'm just venting and probably going to bed cuz i'm just not in a good mood... maybe things will "look brighter in the morning"..hopefully
<3 Sam
P.S. Thank you Los for being there for me tonight, I'm sorry i hadda get plans messed but thank you for just being there it meant a ton...i love you so much and i'm so glad i have you in my life...
Dag n los for life hahaha