Thoughts from a fangirl about her favourite tv show and it's ending
I guess, I never really realized how much this story meant to me... until now, that it's somehow destroyed. Damn you Kripke.
And yeah, I know I'm getting a bit emotional about this... but this show, this story with it's characters accompanied my life since I first saw it, and it gripped me like nothing else did before and it was... like refuge. I loved it. Because it kept my thoughts elsewhere for a little bit, so I hadn't to think about my fucking life, which I hate so much. And as crazy as that sounds... somehow it created the illusion that there maybe really is something like hope. That even if everything else fails, there's still family, and friends and love you can count on. But there isn't. Not really. That's just an illusion we hold onto, so we don't lose our minds through all the shit that we caused ourselves.
The truth is, we're alone. And there isn't anything you can count on, when everything else fails, except for yourself and your sanity. And your only chance is to fight... and try to hold on through all the pain and maybe even enjoy some little things in between the ride, before it all goes to hell and the fucking shit starts all over again. Just because it was so much fun...
Maybe that's why I hated this last episode so much... it reminded me too much of reality. And that's not what it was supposed to do. It was supposed to give me illusion. Not pain. That's something I've got enough of in real life.
So yeah, damn you Kripke. You failed. Yes, maybe you created something realistic and it can even be seen as good. It was all very well played by every each one of them and all... but it failed the whole "entertainment"-idea based on illusion. Nobody watches tv so he gets reminded of all the shit that's going on in real life, right? That's what the news and papers are for. Bot not tv shows, damnit!
I really hope he's lucky about "his" fucking ending.
And yeah, I know I'm getting a bit emotional about this... but this show, this story with it's characters accompanied my life since I first saw it, and it gripped me like nothing else did before and it was... like refuge. I loved it. Because it kept my thoughts elsewhere for a little bit, so I hadn't to think about my fucking life, which I hate so much. And as crazy as that sounds... somehow it created the illusion that there maybe really is something like hope. That even if everything else fails, there's still family, and friends and love you can count on. But there isn't. Not really. That's just an illusion we hold onto, so we don't lose our minds through all the shit that we caused ourselves.
The truth is, we're alone. And there isn't anything you can count on, when everything else fails, except for yourself and your sanity. And your only chance is to fight... and try to hold on through all the pain and maybe even enjoy some little things in between the ride, before it all goes to hell and the fucking shit starts all over again. Just because it was so much fun...
Maybe that's why I hated this last episode so much... it reminded me too much of reality. And that's not what it was supposed to do. It was supposed to give me illusion. Not pain. That's something I've got enough of in real life.
So yeah, damn you Kripke. You failed. Yes, maybe you created something realistic and it can even be seen as good. It was all very well played by every each one of them and all... but it failed the whole "entertainment"-idea based on illusion. Nobody watches tv so he gets reminded of all the shit that's going on in real life, right? That's what the news and papers are for. Bot not tv shows, damnit!
I really hope he's lucky about "his" fucking ending.