liability
*walks over to the small table near her bedroom window and looks outside* Vivian is training with dartz in fighting techniques, the Kaiba's are going to join in the fight and I know Varon and Raph well help as well. Even Keith will be able to help with the demons. I am not sure what I can do to help if the threat were to come to the castle. I do not know if I will be allowed to help even the slightest since I am with child. Don't get me wrong, I want this child. I love this child with all my heart and I am doing what is necessary to insure that I have a healthy pregnancy. I am just not sure of my part here. Will I be a liability? Will someone be killed because they had to protect me? I do not want to be the one that brings everything down simply because I can't fight. I do not want to be in the way. I do not want someone to die because they......I could not live knowing that someone died because I needed protection. *looks from the window and down at her feet as tears threaten to form.* I miss Max so much and even though there are so many guest here, I feel alone. I want him here by my side but I know that I must wait until everything in Japan is straightened out. *sighs* I am just feel very weak.