stepping stones
Monday got my license AND my prom dress!!! hurrah!!! im in luvvv w/ it teeheehee, n my new set of keys on my hottt coach keychain along w/ my moms car isnt bad either lol....it was GREAT day, although i stil failed parallel parking haha
Tuesday morning my mommy watched me leave the house in my newfounded car...reminded me of when i was old enough to walk to Hillside elementary all by myself n my mom watched me walk away.....awwww...n then wen i got to the back pool parking lot i turned on my cell n called my mommy like she asked b/c shes paranoid n cute like that lol...man it was just so LIBERATING....like when you stand on top of a tall mountain after a long ass hike n u see the view, all clear skies and its just a breathtaking view...it felt like that....i had finally come of age and passed my test of course n this was the reward....mmmmm
Wednedsay, well thats today....was happy as a pea in a pod (idk if theyre happy or not but who cares haha)....so last nite my mom had told me laughingly that my dad was gonna hire a high school boy who had an eyebrow piercing....that already caught my interest haha but that wasnt the best part....the best was this mornin when i was getting ready for school n heard my dad talkin bout this kid to melly.....he said he was 17, isralei, and from springfield (makes sense considering my dads deli is in springfield) n his rabbi suggested him.....n of cours he mentioned the eyebrow piercing....so as i was walking out the door i asked him what his name was, not expecting to know him but wanting to see if he had a hott isralei name when he said noam...he pronounced it wrong but there it was: noam....the boy who basically was the reason for my obsession with israleis (or who really started it neway haha).....i walked out the door n just didnt know wat to do but freak out....this was the kid who i hated the 1st yr of camp with his seemingly asshole satnce and reeked of ax; went to a yj convention where he played the piano practially for my benefit n i i fell for him; and then the next summer where he had a g/f n lived on the other side of camp but still the way he looked at me never changed, the way he was just so amazing and sweet and oy; the next summer how i stupidly thought this would be THE summer but he didnt come back; this is the boy that i probably have been wanting for so long that he is no longer a reality, but something i have dreamt up to be larger and more proufound than any human being can be....reminds me of jay in the great gastsby haha for the excption that i never really had a relationship with this kid...this, my friends, is the kid who lives only a few towns down away from me yet he seems like an eternity because he is just that unreachable and intangable....and this is the boy that will be working at my dad's deli, the deli i technically havent seen yet and only really want to see now because of him...this my friends is a chance most people dont get in a lifetime and if i screw it up, so help me god, idk wat ill do with myself.....i had my chance once and completely blew it, i refuse to do it again...
now to figure out how to go into the store and a) not be badgered by my dad b) explain why im at the store in the fist place c) start an easy do-you-remember-me-b/c-i-most-certainly-remember-you convo with him
man oh man, my life, in a nutshell
~Sammy
Tuesday morning my mommy watched me leave the house in my newfounded car...reminded me of when i was old enough to walk to Hillside elementary all by myself n my mom watched me walk away.....awwww...n then wen i got to the back pool parking lot i turned on my cell n called my mommy like she asked b/c shes paranoid n cute like that lol...man it was just so LIBERATING....like when you stand on top of a tall mountain after a long ass hike n u see the view, all clear skies and its just a breathtaking view...it felt like that....i had finally come of age and passed my test of course n this was the reward....mmmmm
Wednedsay, well thats today....was happy as a pea in a pod (idk if theyre happy or not but who cares haha)....so last nite my mom had told me laughingly that my dad was gonna hire a high school boy who had an eyebrow piercing....that already caught my interest haha but that wasnt the best part....the best was this mornin when i was getting ready for school n heard my dad talkin bout this kid to melly.....he said he was 17, isralei, and from springfield (makes sense considering my dads deli is in springfield) n his rabbi suggested him.....n of cours he mentioned the eyebrow piercing....so as i was walking out the door i asked him what his name was, not expecting to know him but wanting to see if he had a hott isralei name when he said noam...he pronounced it wrong but there it was: noam....the boy who basically was the reason for my obsession with israleis (or who really started it neway haha).....i walked out the door n just didnt know wat to do but freak out....this was the kid who i hated the 1st yr of camp with his seemingly asshole satnce and reeked of ax; went to a yj convention where he played the piano practially for my benefit n i i fell for him; and then the next summer where he had a g/f n lived on the other side of camp but still the way he looked at me never changed, the way he was just so amazing and sweet and oy; the next summer how i stupidly thought this would be THE summer but he didnt come back; this is the boy that i probably have been wanting for so long that he is no longer a reality, but something i have dreamt up to be larger and more proufound than any human being can be....reminds me of jay in the great gastsby haha for the excption that i never really had a relationship with this kid...this, my friends, is the kid who lives only a few towns down away from me yet he seems like an eternity because he is just that unreachable and intangable....and this is the boy that will be working at my dad's deli, the deli i technically havent seen yet and only really want to see now because of him...this my friends is a chance most people dont get in a lifetime and if i screw it up, so help me god, idk wat ill do with myself.....i had my chance once and completely blew it, i refuse to do it again...
now to figure out how to go into the store and a) not be badgered by my dad b) explain why im at the store in the fist place c) start an easy do-you-remember-me-b/c-i-most-certainly-remember-you convo with him
man oh man, my life, in a nutshell
~Sammy