oh man...
so now that i've got (ahem) a little time off... i've been attempting to learn to do the ram upgrades on xboxes... oh man... i'm a little afeared. i finally watched a video clip of someone doing one chip, only to discover that my $8 soldering iron from radio shack's tip WILL NOT WORK. so then i get to reading and discover that i need one smaller than 2mm. eep. time to upgrade the set up. fortunately, i found what i need... i just hate that i have to spend so much (which granted 'so much' isn't that much these days) to do it. i just know that if i don't do it now, i never will. its gonna take me forever...
i'm gonna be 25 soon. that's a weird feeling. i keep thinking about that john mayer line about 'a quarter life crisis'... i wonder if that's what i'm going through? i have the strangest feeling that this baby's not gonna make it to dec. 10th... i can't really explain, other than its kicking its ass off. its gonna kick its way out, i'm pretty sure. still don't know what i'm having yet... but along the vein that it might come early, i'm just gonna pull all of miles' old clothes out and make due. clean up that room and try to find some more cam-locks to fix the crib. (long story, but when we went to take the crib apart when miles got his bed and it just kinda crumbled... scary)
he's doing good, btw... miles, i mean. but for the record... toddler + grape popsicle = big fucking mess. sigh, but he liked it... and at least he's eating. he's 35 3/4" tall and still only 26 lbs. skinny butt.
the puppy's still alive... :) she's good too. she's really too big to be an inside dog, so... she's outside. but having spent the first 4 months of her life in a laundry room with 9 other puppies, i think she likes it out there. when we go down to her, she starts bouncing like a kangaroo. :)
"who are you.... where are you going..." i wish i knew these things... my mom tells me it will pass... i just hate this waiting. being poor... thinking about the past... wondering what i could've done differently. i guess there isn't anything i could have done. if i did, it would change all the good things too. i don't want to be rich... just comfortable. i don't want to be lazy... i want to work for a fair amount... in a fair place... as the song says 'someday i'll make enough to make it easier to pay the phone bill'...
anywho, i'm trying to stay positive... its just a little tricky, being overly hormonal AND broke... and scared.
i wish i knew what else i wanted... what else we needed...
anybody have any ideas?
ps... miles' birthday is aug. 20th... his party is aug. 20th... come one, come all... watch a toddler stuff cake into his face! :)
i'm gonna be 25 soon. that's a weird feeling. i keep thinking about that john mayer line about 'a quarter life crisis'... i wonder if that's what i'm going through? i have the strangest feeling that this baby's not gonna make it to dec. 10th... i can't really explain, other than its kicking its ass off. its gonna kick its way out, i'm pretty sure. still don't know what i'm having yet... but along the vein that it might come early, i'm just gonna pull all of miles' old clothes out and make due. clean up that room and try to find some more cam-locks to fix the crib. (long story, but when we went to take the crib apart when miles got his bed and it just kinda crumbled... scary)
he's doing good, btw... miles, i mean. but for the record... toddler + grape popsicle = big fucking mess. sigh, but he liked it... and at least he's eating. he's 35 3/4" tall and still only 26 lbs. skinny butt.
the puppy's still alive... :) she's good too. she's really too big to be an inside dog, so... she's outside. but having spent the first 4 months of her life in a laundry room with 9 other puppies, i think she likes it out there. when we go down to her, she starts bouncing like a kangaroo. :)
"who are you.... where are you going..." i wish i knew these things... my mom tells me it will pass... i just hate this waiting. being poor... thinking about the past... wondering what i could've done differently. i guess there isn't anything i could have done. if i did, it would change all the good things too. i don't want to be rich... just comfortable. i don't want to be lazy... i want to work for a fair amount... in a fair place... as the song says 'someday i'll make enough to make it easier to pay the phone bill'...
anywho, i'm trying to stay positive... its just a little tricky, being overly hormonal AND broke... and scared.
i wish i knew what else i wanted... what else we needed...
anybody have any ideas?
ps... miles' birthday is aug. 20th... his party is aug. 20th... come one, come all... watch a toddler stuff cake into his face! :)