Here I am, once again.
"Behind These Hazel Eyes" by Kelly Clarkson has definately grown on me a lot these past few weeks.
I dont feel like writing much about this past week. Nothing too out of the ordinary happened. Hung out with people, slept a lot, chilled, and I only had one test (which was that mega easy english final). So it was an ok week.
And today is father's day, which I'm not a part of or celebrating until my family decides to actually treat me like I'm part of the family, which quite possibly could never happen. Oh well.
I've been feeling more.. umm.. enlightened, or something lately. I dont know.. I've just realized so many things lately and part of it sucks because it's like you see so many things that you wish you didn't have to see. And some of it really hurts.
I dont think I'm a complete genius, but I do tend to be very observant and analytical, and it bites me in the ass sometimes seeing/knowing some of the things I do. That's all I'm gonna say there.
Except that... with the shittiness, comes some clarity. The clarity part of it is actually good. It's like having a clean slate to start over with. And that makes me feel better.
My attempt at putting whatever this is into words is probably not making any sense whatsoever. But if you at least somewhat get any part of it, then cool! :)
I've decided that I kind of like writing. Not that I could ever write any really profound literature that would ever matter much to the world, but it's something. And I think it's cool that I could maybe do something with that because it's the first time in 17 years that I found something that I'm told I'm actually good at, and that I may also enjoy too. Why not put it to use if it's there..?
I also want to paint my room a periwinkle-ish color. My room def needs a makeover.
My phone def. sucks. It better start functioning properly, then I bettr get lots of calls =)
And no matter what this summer is going to be good. I dont care how or anything. It just is. We all say that at the start of every summer. Each and every one of us. But, this time, I mean it for real. This is basically gonna be like our last full summer, and our last year together. I think everyone should stick together and enjoy themselves as much as frickin possible. I wanna see like.. everyone. And when I see them, they're all gonna be having fun! I dont care if I have to like throw all the parties myself. lol It's gonna be good.
I think I can end this ridiculous babbling now. Happy Father's Day!
I dont feel like writing much about this past week. Nothing too out of the ordinary happened. Hung out with people, slept a lot, chilled, and I only had one test (which was that mega easy english final). So it was an ok week.
And today is father's day, which I'm not a part of or celebrating until my family decides to actually treat me like I'm part of the family, which quite possibly could never happen. Oh well.
I've been feeling more.. umm.. enlightened, or something lately. I dont know.. I've just realized so many things lately and part of it sucks because it's like you see so many things that you wish you didn't have to see. And some of it really hurts.
I dont think I'm a complete genius, but I do tend to be very observant and analytical, and it bites me in the ass sometimes seeing/knowing some of the things I do. That's all I'm gonna say there.
Except that... with the shittiness, comes some clarity. The clarity part of it is actually good. It's like having a clean slate to start over with. And that makes me feel better.
My attempt at putting whatever this is into words is probably not making any sense whatsoever. But if you at least somewhat get any part of it, then cool! :)
I've decided that I kind of like writing. Not that I could ever write any really profound literature that would ever matter much to the world, but it's something. And I think it's cool that I could maybe do something with that because it's the first time in 17 years that I found something that I'm told I'm actually good at, and that I may also enjoy too. Why not put it to use if it's there..?
I also want to paint my room a periwinkle-ish color. My room def needs a makeover.
My phone def. sucks. It better start functioning properly, then I bettr get lots of calls =)
And no matter what this summer is going to be good. I dont care how or anything. It just is. We all say that at the start of every summer. Each and every one of us. But, this time, I mean it for real. This is basically gonna be like our last full summer, and our last year together. I think everyone should stick together and enjoy themselves as much as frickin possible. I wanna see like.. everyone. And when I see them, they're all gonna be having fun! I dont care if I have to like throw all the parties myself. lol It's gonna be good.
I think I can end this ridiculous babbling now. Happy Father's Day!