sorry but i have to get this out of my head
i wish my mind would stop working, all i can think of is how much i hate him, how much i hate her, what kinda mum gets pregnant by a woman beater, how thick can yah get, and then he abandons the baby 6 months into it being born never has anything to do with her again and then that child finding out that her dads a woman beater who wanted nothing to do with his own child,that you were part of a evil person, that you had his blood running in your veins,how sick would that make you feel, and then having a mum that only cares about you when her boyfriend aint around, when he's around you just get shoved into the corner and then being punnished for trying to have your own life, having your mum divorce her second husband, the person who treated you like you were his own daughter,with love and comfort, who was there to protect you,loosing the best parent youve ever had and only seeing them 4 days a month, and then thinking about all that then the stress of school and love piled on top of that, it makes you do the unexplainable, drugs,smoking,drinkin,cutting,attempted suicide,hating yourself every minute of the day,wishing you had never been born,i cant take that, i need some faith, i need something to fill this hole of emptiness, i even try asking god for the answers, but he doesnt answer my prayers, his words make no sense. i cant take this anymore, its killing me