Musings
Thoughts
I've been trying to think all night about why this baby business bothers/bothered me so much.
I came into this fandom when I really needed something fun to occupy my mind during winter. It's true, I came for the Renner but stayed for the awesome people I met/chatted to on Tumblr.
And I started to write again. I know my writing isn't exactly good but this fandom, gave me room to breathe and explore other sides to my writing styles. I've written quite a few fics, a few Mi ones (which now I have to change the name of the ofc in that. Can't have the same name as little Renner) Some Professor Renner fics, which are unfinished and a few one shots. At the moment I've been working on a series of Renner fics and I don't know whether or not to finish them. I know they're an AU but it seems a little weird writing about a fictional girlfriend when he has a real life one.
Part of me wonders if I'd have felt differently if he had been married when I started off in this fandom?
Of course I'm happy that he's become a dad. Cause its the cutest thing ever. I know he values his privacy and I just wonder that if he'd had come out and said yes, I'm gonna be a father, way back in January when the story broke. The I probably would have gotten over it by now. Maybe gotten over it is a strong word!
Please don't hate me. I love this fandom. It's made me laugh so hard. It feels I just picked a strange time to become a part of it.
I've been in Stargate fandom for more years than I care to mention. And was a Shanks fan for most of that time. And him having kids never bothered me at all. It was sweet. But why now have I turned into this sulky teenager. Probably cause for the last few months I've been kinda of adoring this guy I'll probably never meet. Who I find, funny, charming, sexy, dorky. And I'm hoping that wont change now. It'll be 10x more adorable with a baby.
I do wish him all the love/luck in the world with the little one. He's gonna be a super dad! And the only ever super hero in his daughters eyes!
I've been trying to think all night about why this baby business bothers/bothered me so much.
I came into this fandom when I really needed something fun to occupy my mind during winter. It's true, I came for the Renner but stayed for the awesome people I met/chatted to on Tumblr.
And I started to write again. I know my writing isn't exactly good but this fandom, gave me room to breathe and explore other sides to my writing styles. I've written quite a few fics, a few Mi ones (which now I have to change the name of the ofc in that. Can't have the same name as little Renner) Some Professor Renner fics, which are unfinished and a few one shots. At the moment I've been working on a series of Renner fics and I don't know whether or not to finish them. I know they're an AU but it seems a little weird writing about a fictional girlfriend when he has a real life one.
Part of me wonders if I'd have felt differently if he had been married when I started off in this fandom?
Of course I'm happy that he's become a dad. Cause its the cutest thing ever. I know he values his privacy and I just wonder that if he'd had come out and said yes, I'm gonna be a father, way back in January when the story broke. The I probably would have gotten over it by now. Maybe gotten over it is a strong word!
Please don't hate me. I love this fandom. It's made me laugh so hard. It feels I just picked a strange time to become a part of it.
I've been in Stargate fandom for more years than I care to mention. And was a Shanks fan for most of that time. And him having kids never bothered me at all. It was sweet. But why now have I turned into this sulky teenager. Probably cause for the last few months I've been kinda of adoring this guy I'll probably never meet. Who I find, funny, charming, sexy, dorky. And I'm hoping that wont change now. It'll be 10x more adorable with a baby.
I do wish him all the love/luck in the world with the little one. He's gonna be a super dad! And the only ever super hero in his daughters eyes!