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I feel safe on livejournal. I don't have any real-life friends on here, so I can post whatever I want, without them seeing it, unlike on tumblr.
I cried today for the first time in awhile. Well, there's this boy, who I'm completely in love with. I shouldn't be though, because he's the type of guy who talks the same way to every girl. He's all I've been able to think about for the last 9 or 10 months, and I'm starting to hate it. He's the only guy I've been able to like for awhile. I need to find a way to get over him, but it seems impossible. My friends don't seem to understand. When we talk about boyfriends, they're just like, "We need to find you a guy...who's not him~." It's not that easy though. Nobody seems to understand what I've been going through. I don't need this guy in my life, but I want him in it more than anything. My mom found out about it, and thought it was stupid, and told me I'm not in love with him, and she told my grandma, who completely went off on me for thinking that I am. It sucks. I have no one to really talk to about, because everyone thinks I'm being dumb, and it hurts. I feel like I tell the person I normally go to for help, too much of my problems, and I don't want to make him uncomfortable or anything. I just need someone who understands, and could help.
I cried today for the first time in awhile. Well, there's this boy, who I'm completely in love with. I shouldn't be though, because he's the type of guy who talks the same way to every girl. He's all I've been able to think about for the last 9 or 10 months, and I'm starting to hate it. He's the only guy I've been able to like for awhile. I need to find a way to get over him, but it seems impossible. My friends don't seem to understand. When we talk about boyfriends, they're just like, "We need to find you a guy...who's not him~." It's not that easy though. Nobody seems to understand what I've been going through. I don't need this guy in my life, but I want him in it more than anything. My mom found out about it, and thought it was stupid, and told me I'm not in love with him, and she told my grandma, who completely went off on me for thinking that I am. It sucks. I have no one to really talk to about, because everyone thinks I'm being dumb, and it hurts. I feel like I tell the person I normally go to for help, too much of my problems, and I don't want to make him uncomfortable or anything. I just need someone who understands, and could help.