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This entry goes hand in hand with Ashley's. i.e. I don't even feel like a person anymore. I work ever single fucking day. Babysitting which is nothing but mind numbing, but other than that an easy job, and then work for at least and hour and a half every day. I have to go every day but sunday now to get everything done. I get done babysitting about 6 every day except thursday and friday and drive from Lemont all the way back to oak lawn which is anywhere from 25-35 minutes and then back out to palos hills if im going home. I in oak lawn from about 6:45 to 8ish then i go home and usually don't do anything or go to jaytees and sleep because I'm too tired to do anything else. I've given up homework not because I'm lazy (though I am) but I just don't have the energy to do it. Ugh. I can't wait for this fucking "high school experience" bs to be over. Best four years of my life, hah. That's a joke right there. When i'm done with high school, I'm not going to miss it. not for one second. That place turns me into a much more cynical person and I hate it. It makes me act like a person I don't want to be. I'm tired all the time and I just want to sleep until next fall. I miss having a home to call my own. I hate having to make fucking lunch or dinner plans to see my mom. Most of you see your mom when you walk in the door, right? I don't. I have to go out of my way and make plans to see her, then have strained conversations that have to fill 1-2 hours. This just doesn't seem right. My dad is having back surgery soon, 20 percent chance they will fuck up and he'll die. So what's the bad news right?
Even after the surgery he will be impaired for 4 weeks. HE CANT DRIVE FOR FOUR WEEKS. So on top of everything else add grocery shopping. cleaning, and tending to a sick person to my list of shit to do. Hooray. Also, I'm in debt from the fucking 600 dollars worth of repair my car needed. I was driving on E for half the day today. Everything sucks. I want to go home, and its not even there anymore. Russian people live in my old house. Fuck Russia. I'm done. I'm at work and I want to leave.
Even after the surgery he will be impaired for 4 weeks. HE CANT DRIVE FOR FOUR WEEKS. So on top of everything else add grocery shopping. cleaning, and tending to a sick person to my list of shit to do. Hooray. Also, I'm in debt from the fucking 600 dollars worth of repair my car needed. I was driving on E for half the day today. Everything sucks. I want to go home, and its not even there anymore. Russian people live in my old house. Fuck Russia. I'm done. I'm at work and I want to leave.