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Jun 27, 2005 21:35

I want to go out with someone so badly ( Read more... )

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 03:07:58 UTC
i know how you feel... i've been single for awhile and it's so difficult to see everyone around you all settled down and happy in relationships... i hope you find someone soon!

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sammy625 June 28 2005, 03:14:10 UTC
Thanks.

I feel bad for two reasons -
1) I haven't had a boyfriend in 5 months. But that isn't really that long. So I feel bad for my friends who haven't been in a relationship in forever.
2) I don't want to screw up anybody else's chances of getting into a relationship.

: /

I hope you find someone soon too. You probably deserve them a lot more than I do.

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 03:19:48 UTC
1) i've been out of a relationship about as long as you have and
2) i don't think either of us deserve it more or less... and
3) getting into a relationship doesn't screw up other people's chances unless you are specifically stealing someone else's boyfriend, and i can't picture you doing that...

just know that you're not alone in this... there are plenty of other single people, and it's probably better to find the right guy than to just date the next guy that walks in front of you because you want to date... mr. right will come along... in due time (it's the due time we have to worry about) ;-)

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 03:38:43 UTC
i know the feeling... far too well... i want someone to hold and to kiss... i miss that so much... i am so unbelieveably jealous of some of my friends... they are so happy and settled... there's a new group of people that have started including me and it feels like they're all couples... some of them are nearly engaged and it's so beautful, but at the same time it's bittersweet because it's them and not me...

that sounds awful doesn't it... oh well, it's how i feel

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sammy625 June 28 2005, 03:43:20 UTC
That doesn't sound awful at all.

From the outside looking in, it seems as if love is really a bittersweet sort of concept.

Not that I would understand.

When I look at other couples, it's not really jealousy. It's more of a yearning. I don't think a guy would know how wonderfully I would treat him. Sometimes I look at guys and I think to myself...you could have it so good. It's not even in a sexual way. But being in a relationship is, well, fun.

And I know feelings, and I know emotions. And I wish I could feel some of these things. And I can tell you would want to too.

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sammy625 June 28 2005, 03:45:08 UTC
Not from me, of course. But I know you have the desire to pursue a relationship, obviously.

I think the one thing holding me back sometimes might be my confidence. If there was one thing I wish I had at times, it would be confidence.

I guess I need to start loving myself first. But I've been trying to for the past 17 years and I haven't been too successful.

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 03:57:34 UTC
yeah, it's really hard for other people to love you if you don't love yourself

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sammy625 June 28 2005, 04:02:11 UTC

I'm trying.

: /

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 04:02:58 UTC
this is getting long isn't it?

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sammy625 June 28 2005, 04:04:27 UTC
It is. But I like it.

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 04:21:37 UTC
i feel like we should chat on IM so we can get a more instantaneous response... these chains get weird...

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sammy625 June 28 2005, 03:32:25 UTC
Wow, I just had this whole thing typed up for you and it got deleted ( ... )

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kayc1128 June 28 2005, 03:44:42 UTC
i know what love is... i know i loved my ex... i loved him a lot, otherwise i would have never put up w/ his crap for so long... i would have never allowed him to bring me down the way he did... i just wanted to be with him so badly

and i go off on tangents too... if you want to chat or something, i'm c00g1128 on AIM

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