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James and I have been talking a lot about love lately.
What is love?
What does it mean to love someone?
Is it better to wait for the right person or just "have fun"?
What are the diffrent kinds of love?
What reminds me of love?
And Iv been thinking about it a lot on my own.
So...here are some of my random thoughts about love.
Two songs that make me smile, and make me think of love above all others are "Wonderful Tonight " and "In my Life"
"Something" also is another one. But see the first two have personal meaning, "Something" is just an all around perfect love song.
Anyway. I was talking about the song "Wonderful Tonight" with Erica last night. And she mentioned how she didnt really get the lyrics. She didnt understand how amazing they were. Maybe you just have to listen to enough Clapton to understand him.
It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."
We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."
I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.
It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."
You see...the song is beautiful because its so simple. The first part, hes talking about just watching her get ready, thats all. Just watching her brush her hair and get dressed up. And all he can do is look at her and see his wonderful woman. And in the second part, they arnt doing anything fancy but having fun at the party, but all he can do is look at the woman he loves, and see how wonderful she is. Same with the last part. Hes saying that the littest things like helping him to bed make her wonderful. The song is about how simple love is when you finally find it. Its about looking at the person you love, and knowing for sure that they are the one, because all you can do is see how amazing they are. This song shows how it dosnt have to be this big complicated thing. It brings back the real meaning of love, and thats just simply seeing how amazing your partner is. And seeing the real reasons why you love them. Its simple, and people dont understand that.
They dont get how something so profound and amazing can be simple. because love really is you know...simple. When it boils down to it. You find the person, and you love them, no matter what.
I just love that song. It reminds me of pat. Because well...its our song. I got to dance with him to it on saturday night. I missed my best friend.
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“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.”
I love that quote. It just shows...love is simple. Love is love, and there is no other way to describe it.
"In my Life" is another song that reminds me of love and happiness above all others.
There are places i'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends i still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life i've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
In my life i love you more
This song has very speical meaning for me. Nobody really knows the backround to it, so i intend to keep it that way. Its just one of those thigns, that when you hear the song, you sit back and listen, close your eyes, and smile.
This song I think shows love because it shows how special love is. Like...when you meet the right person, the world stops. And suddnely everything else is less important. Well no, thats not it. Its just...you meet this person that changes your life, and you place them above all else. It dosnt mean that you love the other things less, because you never forget where you came from, or what you have loved before, but its like...once you meet the right person, life starts new. It starts over becuase suddenly everything else means so much more. There is more definition to what you do, and how you do it. When you meet that person, they totally redefine love, and everything. Im prob. not doing a vrey good job at explaining this, but I cant help it. Im very skatter brained.
I would explain how I feel about the song "something" but I dont really feel like it. Maybe. Its just...its basicly those two songs together. That song describes love perfectly. Its just..."something" about the person...I compleatly understand. So I wont get into it. Becuase Im lazy.
So I was thinking today...how do you tell if you love someone? Should it click? Or are the're signs? I guess I think its a mix. For me I would say anyway. For example, i guess you just feel it. You just know. I cant explain. But thats how i expect it goes.
However...I was thinking about it, and i guess there are some thigns that need to be there. For me anyway...I mean, I guess its kinda a mutual understanding that two people have to share. For me anyway.
1. Music.- Now, Im not saying we must like the same music. Becusae everyone has diffrent tastes. But i can close my eyes, and listen to music, and feel it. Feel the emotion behind it. I guess, they cant just view music as "just music". Because its not. Its not "just music" its not "just chords and notes". Its not "just lyrics"...because if people cant put emotion into that...then they cant put it into anything. Not the way I need it. If they view thigns as "just"...it cant work. There is meaning behind everything. If they cant fully understand the emotion that goes into things, then they cant fully love me. I dunno, I was talking to James about this. It made more sense when I described it to him. He gets what I say because sometimes we think the same way. We have that same emotional connection with things like that. I'll stop trying to explain this one.
2.Crazy.- Now, well all know that I am insane. There is no doubt about that. And there is no way I could ever be with someone who I had to hide the crazy from. It just wouldnt work. They need to love me for who I am. Crazy and all.
3. Ok, so this one is a little out there. But i was talking about this with erica last night. or...a few nights ago. (this entry was written over the course of a few days) Anyway, I always kinda thought that when you love someone, and they're right for you, you have this unspoken physical bond. LIke...when your lying there together, or just sitting, your breath and your heart beat kinda match. I dunno, i just feel like that should be an unspoken connection. like real proof that you were made for each other. I dunno...maybe I watch too many chick flicks.
I dunno...I had a few other things. but I guess it dosnt matter.
I have been writing this over the course of a few days.
And a few days ago I would have written things I wanted in a guy. Like...they have to know how to dance well. Like Waltz and swing and stuff. And they have to know how to bake, and cook well. They had to be romantic, and treat me like a princess, and they had to love music, and they had to be athletic, and smart. And good looking of course.
But then I noticed something. At lunch I was sitting with Jess and Dave. And for some reason we were talking about him, and how he was the "perfect boyfriend"...well thats what he said about himself anyway. I didnt agree at all. I think hes a doofus. But anyway, he then proceeded to list everything I have on my list about himself. Hes somewhat good looking, cooks, dances, smart, romantic, he plays guitar very well. And I realized those things dont matter. Becuase if they did, I would be with Dave. But they dont. You cant judge your love for someone by what they do. Becuase Dave is yucky, even though he "has all the things I want". I just had that realiziation. It dosnt matter what they can do. It matters how you feel around them.
It matters if you can just sit there with them and not have to say anything. It matters if the person is the one thing that can make you feel better at the end of a long day. It matters if the person puts new meaning into your life. They should make old love songs seem new, and all the things you used to love doing...you should love doing them even more because they are your inspiration, and they are what makes you happy. Just because someone can cook or dance dosnt make them right for you. Its what matters inside that counts.
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The more and more James and I talk, the more we talk about love. I guess its a common theme for us. I dunno, mostly becuacse we are both so obsessed with it. Its werid, hes alwyas talking about how hes lonely and upset that at 18 he hasnt found love yet. or even had the chance. I try to tell him that sometimes, and in most cases it takes a while. There are only a small few who know what it is and have expirenced it early. Most people usually dont.
Reading what I wrote above about my three things or whatever that were important, I dont even know about that. Its just...love should be an emotion above all others. It should fill the gap thats empty. It should feel like your finally whole when your with that person, because you are. They should make you feel free, and relaxed, but tense and excited all at the same time.
People say that your true love shouldnt make you cry, and that you'll never fight blah blah blah.
Bull shit.
Thats whats its all about. Emotion. Becuase love is the strongest emotion all others succumb to it. Anger, Rage...Sadness, Lonelyness...Happyness, carefree...all of them all are somehow wrapped around love.
Its scary sometimes. That there is a feeling that will make you figure out who you really are. Its a very scary emotion. One so strong that when you find it, everything you do revloves around it.
Its dangerous to bring yourself to totally let go and give yourself to love. Becuase once you have, there is no going back. When you love someone, you give a part of you to them. Not only your past, but your present and future. Its a part of you that you cant ever get back. I think thats why people always remeber their first love. Becuase when you love someone, like really love someone, no emotions held back, scary all or nothing love....you are vunerable, and your counting on that person to take care of you. To promise that nothing will ever happen to the heart that you gave them.
I guess describing it this way makes it seem complicated.
But it brings me back to my origional point of the songs.
Its not complicated. Its simple.
Maybe its complicated up untill you actually find the right person.
But when you find them,
thats when all the complication should stop, and you know,
really know, that that is the person you are meant to be with.
You just look at them. Look at them doing what they love, or look at them talking, or watching TV...you look at them like anyone else would, but you see something diffrent. You see them unlike anyone else ever has. You see how wonderful they are. You take joy in the little things about them. You celebrate the things that other people would find annoying but only you find unique. You can look at them...their all their imperfections, all the mistakes and still only recognize it as perfection.
When you love someone, time should matter. It should matter how much time has pssed, if its morning, noon, or night. Becuase your always thinking of them, they're alwyas in your mind, dreams and in your heart. THinking about them should put a smile on your face at any point in time. Just becuase you care about them that much. Time shouldnt matter becuase you should want every moment to be with them. Every thought, every dream...about them. With them. For them.
and the amazing thing about finding the person you really love is...you dont lose love for anyone else. Loving someone shouldnt take time, or love away from your other friends and family. It should be that you love them all the same as you always did. But that person.That special person goes above and beyond. They re-define love for you. They re-define the reason to live. Bringing a new kind of love into your life.
God I could go on forever. But I wont.
All I can say is...
"Love...love...Love is all you need"
What is love?
What does it mean to love someone?
Is it better to wait for the right person or just "have fun"?
What are the diffrent kinds of love?
What reminds me of love?
And Iv been thinking about it a lot on my own.
So...here are some of my random thoughts about love.
Two songs that make me smile, and make me think of love above all others are "Wonderful Tonight " and "In my Life"
"Something" also is another one. But see the first two have personal meaning, "Something" is just an all around perfect love song.
Anyway. I was talking about the song "Wonderful Tonight" with Erica last night. And she mentioned how she didnt really get the lyrics. She didnt understand how amazing they were. Maybe you just have to listen to enough Clapton to understand him.
It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."
We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."
I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.
It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."
You see...the song is beautiful because its so simple. The first part, hes talking about just watching her get ready, thats all. Just watching her brush her hair and get dressed up. And all he can do is look at her and see his wonderful woman. And in the second part, they arnt doing anything fancy but having fun at the party, but all he can do is look at the woman he loves, and see how wonderful she is. Same with the last part. Hes saying that the littest things like helping him to bed make her wonderful. The song is about how simple love is when you finally find it. Its about looking at the person you love, and knowing for sure that they are the one, because all you can do is see how amazing they are. This song shows how it dosnt have to be this big complicated thing. It brings back the real meaning of love, and thats just simply seeing how amazing your partner is. And seeing the real reasons why you love them. Its simple, and people dont understand that.
They dont get how something so profound and amazing can be simple. because love really is you know...simple. When it boils down to it. You find the person, and you love them, no matter what.
I just love that song. It reminds me of pat. Because well...its our song. I got to dance with him to it on saturday night. I missed my best friend.
"
“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.”
I love that quote. It just shows...love is simple. Love is love, and there is no other way to describe it.
"In my Life" is another song that reminds me of love and happiness above all others.
There are places i'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends i still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life i've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
In my life i love you more
This song has very speical meaning for me. Nobody really knows the backround to it, so i intend to keep it that way. Its just one of those thigns, that when you hear the song, you sit back and listen, close your eyes, and smile.
This song I think shows love because it shows how special love is. Like...when you meet the right person, the world stops. And suddnely everything else is less important. Well no, thats not it. Its just...you meet this person that changes your life, and you place them above all else. It dosnt mean that you love the other things less, because you never forget where you came from, or what you have loved before, but its like...once you meet the right person, life starts new. It starts over becuase suddenly everything else means so much more. There is more definition to what you do, and how you do it. When you meet that person, they totally redefine love, and everything. Im prob. not doing a vrey good job at explaining this, but I cant help it. Im very skatter brained.
I would explain how I feel about the song "something" but I dont really feel like it. Maybe. Its just...its basicly those two songs together. That song describes love perfectly. Its just..."something" about the person...I compleatly understand. So I wont get into it. Becuase Im lazy.
So I was thinking today...how do you tell if you love someone? Should it click? Or are the're signs? I guess I think its a mix. For me I would say anyway. For example, i guess you just feel it. You just know. I cant explain. But thats how i expect it goes.
However...I was thinking about it, and i guess there are some thigns that need to be there. For me anyway...I mean, I guess its kinda a mutual understanding that two people have to share. For me anyway.
1. Music.- Now, Im not saying we must like the same music. Becusae everyone has diffrent tastes. But i can close my eyes, and listen to music, and feel it. Feel the emotion behind it. I guess, they cant just view music as "just music". Because its not. Its not "just music" its not "just chords and notes". Its not "just lyrics"...because if people cant put emotion into that...then they cant put it into anything. Not the way I need it. If they view thigns as "just"...it cant work. There is meaning behind everything. If they cant fully understand the emotion that goes into things, then they cant fully love me. I dunno, I was talking to James about this. It made more sense when I described it to him. He gets what I say because sometimes we think the same way. We have that same emotional connection with things like that. I'll stop trying to explain this one.
2.Crazy.- Now, well all know that I am insane. There is no doubt about that. And there is no way I could ever be with someone who I had to hide the crazy from. It just wouldnt work. They need to love me for who I am. Crazy and all.
3. Ok, so this one is a little out there. But i was talking about this with erica last night. or...a few nights ago. (this entry was written over the course of a few days) Anyway, I always kinda thought that when you love someone, and they're right for you, you have this unspoken physical bond. LIke...when your lying there together, or just sitting, your breath and your heart beat kinda match. I dunno, i just feel like that should be an unspoken connection. like real proof that you were made for each other. I dunno...maybe I watch too many chick flicks.
I dunno...I had a few other things. but I guess it dosnt matter.
I have been writing this over the course of a few days.
And a few days ago I would have written things I wanted in a guy. Like...they have to know how to dance well. Like Waltz and swing and stuff. And they have to know how to bake, and cook well. They had to be romantic, and treat me like a princess, and they had to love music, and they had to be athletic, and smart. And good looking of course.
But then I noticed something. At lunch I was sitting with Jess and Dave. And for some reason we were talking about him, and how he was the "perfect boyfriend"...well thats what he said about himself anyway. I didnt agree at all. I think hes a doofus. But anyway, he then proceeded to list everything I have on my list about himself. Hes somewhat good looking, cooks, dances, smart, romantic, he plays guitar very well. And I realized those things dont matter. Becuase if they did, I would be with Dave. But they dont. You cant judge your love for someone by what they do. Becuase Dave is yucky, even though he "has all the things I want". I just had that realiziation. It dosnt matter what they can do. It matters how you feel around them.
It matters if you can just sit there with them and not have to say anything. It matters if the person is the one thing that can make you feel better at the end of a long day. It matters if the person puts new meaning into your life. They should make old love songs seem new, and all the things you used to love doing...you should love doing them even more because they are your inspiration, and they are what makes you happy. Just because someone can cook or dance dosnt make them right for you. Its what matters inside that counts.
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The more and more James and I talk, the more we talk about love. I guess its a common theme for us. I dunno, mostly becuacse we are both so obsessed with it. Its werid, hes alwyas talking about how hes lonely and upset that at 18 he hasnt found love yet. or even had the chance. I try to tell him that sometimes, and in most cases it takes a while. There are only a small few who know what it is and have expirenced it early. Most people usually dont.
Reading what I wrote above about my three things or whatever that were important, I dont even know about that. Its just...love should be an emotion above all others. It should fill the gap thats empty. It should feel like your finally whole when your with that person, because you are. They should make you feel free, and relaxed, but tense and excited all at the same time.
People say that your true love shouldnt make you cry, and that you'll never fight blah blah blah.
Bull shit.
Thats whats its all about. Emotion. Becuase love is the strongest emotion all others succumb to it. Anger, Rage...Sadness, Lonelyness...Happyness, carefree...all of them all are somehow wrapped around love.
Its scary sometimes. That there is a feeling that will make you figure out who you really are. Its a very scary emotion. One so strong that when you find it, everything you do revloves around it.
Its dangerous to bring yourself to totally let go and give yourself to love. Becuase once you have, there is no going back. When you love someone, you give a part of you to them. Not only your past, but your present and future. Its a part of you that you cant ever get back. I think thats why people always remeber their first love. Becuase when you love someone, like really love someone, no emotions held back, scary all or nothing love....you are vunerable, and your counting on that person to take care of you. To promise that nothing will ever happen to the heart that you gave them.
I guess describing it this way makes it seem complicated.
But it brings me back to my origional point of the songs.
Its not complicated. Its simple.
Maybe its complicated up untill you actually find the right person.
But when you find them,
thats when all the complication should stop, and you know,
really know, that that is the person you are meant to be with.
You just look at them. Look at them doing what they love, or look at them talking, or watching TV...you look at them like anyone else would, but you see something diffrent. You see them unlike anyone else ever has. You see how wonderful they are. You take joy in the little things about them. You celebrate the things that other people would find annoying but only you find unique. You can look at them...their all their imperfections, all the mistakes and still only recognize it as perfection.
When you love someone, time should matter. It should matter how much time has pssed, if its morning, noon, or night. Becuase your always thinking of them, they're alwyas in your mind, dreams and in your heart. THinking about them should put a smile on your face at any point in time. Just becuase you care about them that much. Time shouldnt matter becuase you should want every moment to be with them. Every thought, every dream...about them. With them. For them.
and the amazing thing about finding the person you really love is...you dont lose love for anyone else. Loving someone shouldnt take time, or love away from your other friends and family. It should be that you love them all the same as you always did. But that person.That special person goes above and beyond. They re-define love for you. They re-define the reason to live. Bringing a new kind of love into your life.
God I could go on forever. But I wont.
All I can say is...
"Love...love...Love is all you need"