TREVOR!!
Trevor just called me and he was like "me and curt are in malden, we're gunna come visit you"....Im so pumped. I miss them so very much. It makes me super duper happy. I mean, this is assuming they can find their way here.
I havnt seen trevor in so so long, and he makes me super duper happy, and trust me I need that.
So today in school I was miserable. I mean I havnt been that miserable In so so long,and I just cant help it. Jess tried so very hard to help, but it just didnt work. I hate it when things dont work out as planned. I hate when things just dont work out!!!
speaking of not working out, we're not going to Maine. Apparently the place is like totally snowed it, so we'd never be able to make it there this weekend. I feel so horrible, all my friends were so looking forward to it, and I dunno, i just wish we could go. It was going to be so much fun. But like...gaahHH!! I really needed that. I just need to get away. LIke now...
I'll tell you what I wanna do. I need a BFFL sleep over at pats house.
When trevor gets here Im just gunna be like "pleeeeeese take me with you!!!!" Of course, that probally wont work. I mean I have school. But otherwise, I bet hed bring me.
Have you ever wanted to just...leave? I dunno, this is the part where I plan on typing what comes outta my head, and it wont make any sense. I just wanna go, get up and go.But I dont know where i wanna go, or what I wanna leave from. I mean, is it possible to love your life and hate it at the same time? I feel like Im making no real use of my life. Im not really doing anything important while being here. THis life, this lifestyle...all of it. Uselss. NO one would care , or notice if I was gone. It wouldnt impact people. NOw IM not saying that as a pitty me kinda thing. Im saying it becuase its the truth. I havnt done anything in my life thats made a diffrence. I want to go somewhere new, and make a diffrence there. Or...maybe not make a difference, just relax. Yeah...
I wanna go back to Atlantis. That place was amazing. Like...really...amazing. I mean...come on now, I have yet to see a more beautiful place. there was nice. There you could just sit back and have fun. God thats all I want.
No okay...this is the question.
Im going to post this question and I want you all to answer it, and yes I myself will answer.
Q- If you could be anywhere, doing anything, with anyone, at any time, for any amount of time, where would you be, what would you be doing, who would you be with and for how long? Describe in detial.
A- My answer is pretty much the only way to sum up the crazy fantasys that go through my head. I would be at my Maine house. In the Summer. For the WHOLE summer. And all of my friends would be there. NO...scratch that. Not all of them. Id list them, but I promise you, its most of my friends. But Id say like...3 wouldnt be there. You can prob. guess 2 of them. BUt they would all be there...all my friends, from amesbury, melrose, salem, stonham,etc..etc...And we would all be having fun. Just a lot of fun. And of course everyone would have their like instrmuents, and would be playing music all the time, and of course we would have to tune the piano for dan to play, becuase its my favorite thing to do. But anywya....And I would love it. I can see just like boating everyone around, fishing, and hiking, and cooking, and just gahh!!! a perfect fantasy in my mind.
Thats the thing about me. I love it when people are together. Thats what I really love. Being together with everyone I love it when all my friends are in the same room. or even just the same town. Thats what makes me happy.
Thinking of that makes me so so happy...but all soso sad, becuause i realize its just an insane crazy thought.
miserbale.
I havnt seen trevor in so so long, and he makes me super duper happy, and trust me I need that.
So today in school I was miserable. I mean I havnt been that miserable In so so long,and I just cant help it. Jess tried so very hard to help, but it just didnt work. I hate it when things dont work out as planned. I hate when things just dont work out!!!
speaking of not working out, we're not going to Maine. Apparently the place is like totally snowed it, so we'd never be able to make it there this weekend. I feel so horrible, all my friends were so looking forward to it, and I dunno, i just wish we could go. It was going to be so much fun. But like...gaahHH!! I really needed that. I just need to get away. LIke now...
I'll tell you what I wanna do. I need a BFFL sleep over at pats house.
When trevor gets here Im just gunna be like "pleeeeeese take me with you!!!!" Of course, that probally wont work. I mean I have school. But otherwise, I bet hed bring me.
Have you ever wanted to just...leave? I dunno, this is the part where I plan on typing what comes outta my head, and it wont make any sense. I just wanna go, get up and go.But I dont know where i wanna go, or what I wanna leave from. I mean, is it possible to love your life and hate it at the same time? I feel like Im making no real use of my life. Im not really doing anything important while being here. THis life, this lifestyle...all of it. Uselss. NO one would care , or notice if I was gone. It wouldnt impact people. NOw IM not saying that as a pitty me kinda thing. Im saying it becuase its the truth. I havnt done anything in my life thats made a diffrence. I want to go somewhere new, and make a diffrence there. Or...maybe not make a difference, just relax. Yeah...
I wanna go back to Atlantis. That place was amazing. Like...really...amazing. I mean...come on now, I have yet to see a more beautiful place. there was nice. There you could just sit back and have fun. God thats all I want.
No okay...this is the question.
Im going to post this question and I want you all to answer it, and yes I myself will answer.
Q- If you could be anywhere, doing anything, with anyone, at any time, for any amount of time, where would you be, what would you be doing, who would you be with and for how long? Describe in detial.
A- My answer is pretty much the only way to sum up the crazy fantasys that go through my head. I would be at my Maine house. In the Summer. For the WHOLE summer. And all of my friends would be there. NO...scratch that. Not all of them. Id list them, but I promise you, its most of my friends. But Id say like...3 wouldnt be there. You can prob. guess 2 of them. BUt they would all be there...all my friends, from amesbury, melrose, salem, stonham,etc..etc...And we would all be having fun. Just a lot of fun. And of course everyone would have their like instrmuents, and would be playing music all the time, and of course we would have to tune the piano for dan to play, becuase its my favorite thing to do. But anywya....And I would love it. I can see just like boating everyone around, fishing, and hiking, and cooking, and just gahh!!! a perfect fantasy in my mind.
Thats the thing about me. I love it when people are together. Thats what I really love. Being together with everyone I love it when all my friends are in the same room. or even just the same town. Thats what makes me happy.
Thinking of that makes me so so happy...but all soso sad, becuause i realize its just an insane crazy thought.
miserbale.