i always find my way back to this place...
okay so looking at the last time i updated i lied... never did the cutting and dyeing of the hair... chickened out i guess. i did pass my road test tho, thats cool. school started this week.mine and dons 4 month is ina little more then a week :-D life has been busy, it has been challenging and exciting, disappointing and rewarding. there is so much to learn, and so much to screw up in life.. we really cant get down on ourselves when one persons view of us isnt what we want, we cant let the week be ruined because of a silly mistake or misunderstanding. life is too great, there is too much to enjoy and grab hold of. too many moments are wasted wishing things were different and wondering what if. live life.love life. love your friends, tell them you love them. laugh. cry. move on. cherish everything. take nothing for granted. and have no regrets. these are all things i've tried to understand and take into my life. it isnt always easy but im glad im still trying. im not really sure what the purpose of this is... idk why im writing this now. i guess i just wanted to get it out.. i've been there... i know how life can suck and how it seems pointless at times and the feeling of nothing ever getting better. but the truth is that life is what u make of it. you can control the outcomes, or atleast how you are going to handle it and how u are going to react. it can be ugly, but it can be so beautiful at times. unbearably beautiful. there are so many amazing people that i have come to know, and learn from and been touched by and im so thankful for that. im not trying to preach to anyone or act as if i know it all at 17 or that im never going to have a low point in my life again.. i know i will.. and i know i have alot more to learn and to experience. maybe writing this down is not to tell anyone else, but just some kind of as a reminder to myself. just whats going through my head. its easier sometimes to get it out, write it down. or maybe im just kidding myself... brainwashed by myself. who knows... if i am... oh well. im happy.